Poll: Do you disclose your suicidality to your significant other?

[noname223]

I never Was in a relationship. Maybe for one Day but I don't know whether that counts.

I did not disclose my severe suicidality to the women I dated. One rejection even made me acute suicidal and I was successful in hiding it.

I had very close contact to a Borderline woman. I told her many personal secrets. She told me she attempted as a teenager. I told her I know suicidal thoughts very well. But I never Was explicit about it.

I Was close to killing myself last October and she did not know it. I thought my suicidality would scare her. She Was always scared to lose me. (until she sort of ghosted me lol)

I think disclosing my suicidality to a significant other could cause Problems. Because rejections can trigger them. I don't want to pressure them. It would be very counterproductive. My two closest friends know All the Details though and prevented my suicide in October.

 

[DivineSpark]

I am single, but I dont talk about suicide to my parents and friends. I keep it myself, this is mine burden alone.

 

[Namelesa]

I personally would want to say about all my suicidalness to my partner. It isn't a good relationship for me if I am not allowed to express my problems and suffering.

 

[Linda]

My husband knows everything. He knows that I will ctb if he dies before me, and not otherwise. But since he wouldn't be around when it happened, he doesn't have a problem with it.

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

Not a word or a hint. Never.

 

[Walpurgisnacht]

My partner and I met each-other in states of extreme suffering. We understood each-other in a way I've never felt understood before, she didn't compel or force me to stay alive, she understood my right to die and I understood hers.

We made a promise to each-other long before we decided to be in a relationship that if one of us decided to leave, the other would go with; because it is so rare to get to not die alone...

That is still standing. We decided to face the world together in everything, including death.
For now, we're just seeing what is happening and trying to find out if there actually is a life worth living we could build; and currently things have been unusually good to us, it's strange...
I do love seeing her smile, though, a lot...

 

[monolog]

Accidentally to my sister, because I was asking for something and she insisted on some details about myself, but I think she didn't take it too seriously, I didn't share a plan or anything, it seemed more like philosophical discussion

 

[ramon]

Though I voted "No, I tell them nothing, not even hints", every now and then (specially when I have a few drinks on me), my tongue slips and gives my loved ones a hint or two.

Once I realize I'm running the risk of having my true intentions figured out by them, I immediately hide those hints with a joke or play hypocrite by portraying myself as a pro-lifer.

 

[ma0]

Bold of you to assume anyone would want to be my significant other

 

[shroomia]

My Girlfriend and I talk a lot about suicide and she knows how bad my situation has gotten. We never really talked about methods but I feel very understood when venting to her

 

[deadbidaylight]

My partner knows that I am passively suicidal and sometimes more than passive. Usually in those states I will ask him to keep an eye on me and not let me leave the room alone. I don't trust myself sometimes when I'm in that mental state, and I don't want to die but I'm afraid my impulsiveness will get the best of me when I'm in that dark space. He's also stayed home from work a few times to keep me company when I've been really struggling. He's a good support system. He doesn't know to the extreme degree or what my actual thoughts are, method etc but he knows about my suicidal ideation.

 

[Linda]

My partner knows that I am passively suicidal and sometimes more than passive. Usually in those states I will ask him to keep an eye on me and not let me leave the room alone. I don't trust myself sometimes when I'm in that mental state, and I don't want to die but I'm afraid my impulsiveness will get the best of me when I'm in that dark space. He's also stayed home from work a few times to keep me company when I've been really struggling. He's a good support system. He doesn't know to the extreme degree or what my actual thoughts are, method etc but he knows about my suicidal ideation.

It sounds as though you have a really good partner. Take care of him.

 

[lonergirl_26]

He knows. I think he thinks I'm lying (sometimes I think I'm lying) he always manages to turn the conversation sexual and then acts like it made me "better"

 

[deadbidaylight]

It sounds as though you have a really good partner. Take care of him.

We take care of each other.

 

[SufferingInDenmark]

i told my partner directly, up front without hints, a few years back.
nowadays, i only hint at it tho.

and with my family... i gave my mom a hint about it once. extremely vague.
like really really vague

 

[Forveleth]

Told my partner to his face that I did not want to live anymore. He did not say a thing. Guess he will not miss me.

Edit to add that I learned quite a long time ago not to talk to my family about my mental health. I usually get talked down to or invalidated for how I am feeling.

 

[northevelyn]

My husband is suicidal off and on too, so I'll tell him. I don't really get into the severity though, as I don't want him to worry all the time. It's really hard. It's causing tension in our relationship because I want to ctb but he doesn't want to leave me and isn't willing to consider going with me.

 

[bankai]

No one knows and no one will know. Only people I discuss it with are the people on this site.You are my chums