Please someone help me die.

[Caffeineaddiction]

I really want it all to end. The constant pain, and suffering, the feeling of hopelessness. Everyone tells me it will change, but I have been waiting for 18 years for it to change. I first tried to kill myself when I was 7. No one even cared. I really really want to die. I went to the train tracks last weekend, to wait for an express train and jump in front of it, but I didn't. I don't know why. Well I do, but I don't want to accept it. I don't want to die, I just want it to stop. I just want to not exist. I feel like I'm the only person in this world who sees what I see, and I don't understand how others don't. I don't understand why the world is the way it is. I tried, I really tried, but I can't do anything. I can't do the things I like, because of constant sickness, and tiredness, and other issues that are forced upon me by my surroundings. I don't understand how people live in this world. I just want it to end, but I don't want to kill myself. So please somebody kill me. Or direct me to a person who can. I don't care. I just want it to end without having to actually go through with killing myself. I am afraid of the unknown, but I know that I don't want the known. Please I am literally begging you. Just kill me. Please.

 

[Ikkuna]

I first tried to kill myself when I was 7

Man you never even had a chance

 

[FuneralCry]

It really sounds like you've suffered so much, it's just so cruel and dreadful to me how there's all this suffering in existing, I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.