please rate my very unique suicide method

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i have epilepsy. about 5 seconds before a seizure, i can tell it's about to happen.
and when it does happen, i go pretty much unconscious.
i would say 90% unconscious, because i'm still awake enough to feel the suffering and agony.
i can barely breathe during it.
my airways for some reason get extremely "tight" or whatever.
so i'm gasping for air.

so if i'm on a high risk day for a seizure (meaning if my sleep was terrible),
then i could wear a tourniquet from the minute i start my day.
and like i said, i have a 5 second warning feeling before the seizure happens.
then when i feel like the seizure is definetely coming, i could tighten the tourniquet or zip tie around my neck.
so that when the seizure happens, and i can barely breathe from the seizure, then the tourniquet limits my breathing even more, as an extra thing.

i think that would probably kill me.

i'm just afraid to end up like a vegetable

 

[imOK]

That sounds unsafe and unnecessarily complicated IMO.

 

[xXSufferingXx]

That sounds unsafe and unnecessarily complicated IMO.

how so exactly?

 

[imOK]

how so exactly?

Unsafe because you'll wait for a seizure that you get an advance warning for of five seconds (which isn't really a whole lot) and want to both make decision that these are the last moments of your life and make sure the turniquet sits tight, on a day where you will probably sleep deprived as you said. I'm not sure that will go smooth. You might constrict your airway in a realy unpleasant and damaging way and nothing is sure. You might get brain damage, too. Since you wrote "or whatever", is it medically even like that a seizure constricts your breathing like you describe? I don't know anything about seizures that's why I ask. Maybe you feel like it does but it doesn't actually happen? I have light sleep apnea that sometimes mixes with allergies and at the worst points I sometimes woke up, gasping for air and also feeling like I couldn't breathe. At that point I wasn't really not able though, it just felt like that. Maybe your brain is playing a trick on you? Also you wrote you're not fully unconcious and even if the turniquet and the seizure together work somehow to really choke you to death, that sounds horrifying.

Unnecessary because there are much safer methods that guarantee a much more certain and pleasant way to ctb.

It's your life of course but since you asked, I'd discard this idea.

 

[xXSufferingXx]

Unsafe because you'll wait for a seizure that you get an advance warning for of five seconds (which isn't really a whole lot) and want to both make decision that these are the last moments of your life and make sure the turniquet sits tight, on a day where you will probably sleep deprived as you said. I'm not sure that will go smooth. You might constrict your airway in a realy unpleasant and damaging way and nothing is sure. You might get brain damage, too. Since you wrote "or whatever", is it medically even like that a seizure constricts your breathing like you describe? I don't know anything about seizures that's why I ask. Maybe you feel like it does but it doesn't actually happen? I have light sleep apnea that sometimes mixes with allergies and at the worst points I sometimes woke up, gasping for air and also feeling like I couldn't breathe. At that point I wasn't really not able though, it just felt like that. Maybe your brain is playing a trick on you? Also you wrote you're not fully unconcious and even if the turniquet and the seizure together work somehow to really choke you to death, that sounds horrifying.

Unnecessary because there are much safer methods that guarantee a much more certain and pleasant way to ctb.

It's your life of course but since you asked, I'd discard this idea.

right. on high risk days, i like to stay in the pool all day, if im on vacation.
and i do that.
i haven't been lucky to have a seizure in the pool yet tho

 

[avoid]

I agree with @imOK. You want to have as few unknowns as possible in a suicide method. I see no upsides to adding an epileptic seizure as a part of your plan. Although I'm not familiar with detailed tourniquet methods, it sounds like adding an epileptic seizure to this method is an unnecessary step.

• You don't know when you'll have a seizure.
• You don't know which specific epileptic seizure symptoms you'll experience that potentially conflict with the other steps of your plan, such as fastening a tourniquet and ensuring your own safety in case something goes wrong.
• A 5-second warning adds time pressure. Or, in a way, your previous self peer pressuring your current self, particularly if you got second thoughts after you made the decision.
• You cannot properly test this suicide method.

Well, there may be only one upside: your death may look like an accident if you experience an epileptic seizure in a swimming pool (without tourniquet). But they'll probably question why you didn't take your medicine and why you didn't retreat to a safe environment when you start to experience the initial small shocks. So in short, a rating of 1 carrot out of 4 broccolis.