Please excuse me, I apologize for bothering you

[Defenestration]

Hi,

in real life I have a big social mask I am smiling, enthusiastic, warm, I help others with kindness whether with money, gifts, pleasant words of comfort,i never complain.


here I have the label of someone whiny, painful, annoying, who demands the attention all the time, of a calimero
but I like it here because it's the ONLY place in the world where I can let go. and obviously it is not prohibited by the forum charter...no?

I promise to use fewer smileys but the problem is that in writing there is no tone and English is not my mother tongue (sometimes errors with Google translate). I used a lot of smileys because I'm SUPER EMOTIONNAL and I feel like a little child.


even among psychiatrists, they say annoying and guilt-inducing things like you can't commit suicide because you're still young, you don't have the right to abandon your parents who raised you (my mother has the beginnings of Alzheimer's disease but lives with my father), life has lots of positive aspects, think about those who love you and who will be unhappy, find our new passions etc etc...

the last time I was even told that I was being blackmailed to suicide because I talked too much about suicide so I decided to no longer really talk to psychiatrists about suicide because for them it is absolute evil and I risk ending up against my will in a psychiatric hospital (and I find that my people are poorly treated there)

thank you for reading it
I love you all
@The Schizoid
PEACE please:I 'm just very clumsy I don't purposely bother people...

 

[druggedonsurvival]

No one who says "there are positive things in this world" is going to help you. Having depression means you are literally unable to see anything positive in life. Obviously telling you that positive things exist isn't going to help at all. I would be surprised to hear any psychiatrist say that since that is usually what ignorant non-professionals who don't understand mental illness like to say. Absolutely, you have the right to ctb if you are truly suffering, but you should try anything and everything that you think would help you to feel better first. I hope you are able to find some peace either way.

 

[Defenestration]

ok thank you for reassuring me, I am very touched by your answers

 

[Unattainable666]

Apologies are not necessary. SS is probably the only place where you can voice your opinions and pain free of judgment. If there are any judgments, I suggest you ignore them and just move on. The majority of people on this site are people with hearts and souls who understand your pain. Glad you found a place to vent.

 

[Defenestration]

Ok ok Big thanks

 

[The Schizoid]

The only thing that was bothering me was the spamming of emojis.

Feel free to post anything you want about your life, your pain, your experience, just please recognise that spamming images isn't necessary and is annoying for other people.

 

[Defenestration]

@The Schizoid


ta réponse me fait chaud au cœur

yes I admit that I abused smileys
and I promised not to do it anymore (see this thread). I admit my mistake.

I feel really relieved because I was really bad at the thought of you being angry with me.

 

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[HerculePoirot]

Never apologize for being who you are.
Or for not being who you think people want you to be.

 

[Defenestration]

Never apologize for being who you are.
Or for not being who you think people want you to be.

Yes Indeed i understand

 

[SVEN]

Please don't worry yourself, this may well be the only place people who feel as we do can safely be honest and vent. We're not here because we're happy, mentally and physically, outgoing, optimistic folk.
We're here because we're damaged, broken, hurting and vulnerable; so if you feel that way you're going to fit right in. Welcome.

 

[Aim]

No worries , I think you are the hardest on you. Everyone else I think is mostly concerned about their own lifes and struggles. I wish you nothing else then peace and happiness Juhu

 

[TheNihilisticViking]

Hey! I can relate to your post. I have severe depression/anxiety and social anxiety, although I try to be a source of happiness for other people at times. However, the reality of this world and sentient existence (life) is painful in itself, so this website helps me get my frustrations/sadness with this world and sentient existence (life) out to people who can relate to me. I don't have many friends and neither do I have many people who understand what I'm going through (Life is hard!). Don't feel bad for having to use this website to express sadness/frustration/anger anonymously.

 

[kawaiiphantom]

Personally I like seeing all of the emojis lmao please feel free to express yourself however you want, even if there is some that find it annoying, you're allowed to be yourself!

 

[Defenestration]

I am a very very very bad guy...
I will ctb and my family will be extremely
Sad...i'm a big shit

Hey! I can relate to your post. I have severe depression/anxiety and social anxiety, although I try to be a source of happiness for other people at times. However, the reality of this world and sentient existence (life) is painful in itself, so this website helps me get my frustrations/sadness with this world and sentient existence (life) out to people who can relate to me. I don't have many friends and neither do I have many people who understand what I'm going through (Life is hard!). Don't feel bad for having to use this website to express sadness/frustration/anger anonymously.

I dont hate life i hate my illenesses

No worries , I think you are the hardest on you.

Yes i have a HUGE hate and SHAME of me