Venting Planning to ctb after i finish school

[PropaneOctane]

I only have two more years before i finish school and as for now i have to try to beat my survival instinct so i can have the balls to do it.
It has nothing to do with the adult responsibilities of getting a job,driving,and yadda yadda,i just think. I just think staying alive is pointless in general,especially as a minority in my country. (not specifying which one i am part of)

 

[livinginafog]

May the odds be ever in your favour

 

[Linda]

I only have two more years before i finish school and as for now i have to try to beat my survival instinct so i can have the balls to do it.
It has nothing to do with the adult responsibilities of getting a job,driving,and yadda yadda,i just think. I just think staying alive is pointless in general,especially as a minority in my country. (not specifying which one i am part of)

I realised when I was about 16 that life has no ultimate purpose or meaning. I haven't changed my mnd, and I'm now 70. I will ctb if my husband dies, I have finished my life's work, and my health is starting to decline significantly. I have known that for decades. However, I have also found enough short-term purposes throughout life that I didn't ctb (though I came very close on one occasion, owing to a bad period of depression). It's at least possible that you might find the same.

Since you don't say which minority you belong to, it's hard for me to make any specific suggestions..