
max_caulfield
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- Sep 9, 2020
- 15
Hey, guys. I have been planning all of this for about a month now. At first I ordered a gas tank regulator as well as a few oxygen tubes from a major online marketplace. Had to wait a few weeks for them to come. The gas regulator is supposedly suitable for any inert gas. As my next step, I made the exit bag. I used the "Doing it with Chi" video tutorial for that as well as the guidelines from the PPHB. I already had tape and a large transparent trash bag at home, so I only needed to buy an elastic and a bunch of cord locks. These are quite easy to find in any sewing supplies store.
At first I wanted to buy a nitrogen tank, however, I could only find an argon tank available for shipping to my address. I accidentally ordered and paid for 2 8L 200 bar argon tanks. They turned out to be even heavier than I expected, 15KG each. Yesterday I picked up one of them and was actually panning to ctb on the same day, however, the most stupid thing happened. I couldn't take the protective cap off the cylinder. It got stuck and was probably screwed in a wrong way in the first place, since it sits slightly lopsided on the tank. I tried to google how to solve the problem, and it turns out that stuck caps are a common occurence in gas tanks. I even followed one of the tips from the internet and bought myself a strap wrench, sprayed the cap with WD 40 and tried to get it off. Ended up hurting my hand and feeling stupid and even more suicidal than before. I have quite weak muscles and most of the time I have to ask my friends to open up bottles for me, so I was no match for a 15KG gas tank. Now I am actually happy that I ordered a second tank, as I am planning to go to the pickup location and ask the guy who works there to let me see if the second cylinder can at all be opened. I might ask him to help me, although I am afraid to raise any suspicion. I mean, it's mostly tough 40 year old men who buy welding supplies and not people like me.
I have to say that the only thing that I am afraid of is failing and ending up with brain damage that will not let me finish the deed. That is why I have been thinking about combining the exit bag method with SN. I have already ordered 100g of it from Eastern Europe. Do you guys think it's a good idea? I would actually go with the SN method alone, since it seems to be so straight-forward, however, a year ago I used to have rather low blood pressure and actually fainted a couple of times, and it was a very unpleasant sensation. I would start panicking, my vision would gradually fade, I would gasp for air while feeling nauseous, et cetera. However, I can assure you that after you've actually fainted it can even feel nice for a few moments. I remember feeling waves of warmth spreading over my entire body. So, I am afraid that my potential CTB with SN will be much more unpleasant than simple fainting because it is a toxic chemical. However, I would still go with it if there were no other options left. What I was planning to do is taking SN with anti-emetics and then immediately putting on the exit bag after drinking the poison. This way I would probably lose consciousness in a few minutes before feeling sick or vomiting. I would still have to wait a few weeks until my SN arrives though, and I am not sure if that's what I really want.
Anyway, I should go and check if the second argon tank I ordered has a functioning protective cap. I will keep you updated.
At first I wanted to buy a nitrogen tank, however, I could only find an argon tank available for shipping to my address. I accidentally ordered and paid for 2 8L 200 bar argon tanks. They turned out to be even heavier than I expected, 15KG each. Yesterday I picked up one of them and was actually panning to ctb on the same day, however, the most stupid thing happened. I couldn't take the protective cap off the cylinder. It got stuck and was probably screwed in a wrong way in the first place, since it sits slightly lopsided on the tank. I tried to google how to solve the problem, and it turns out that stuck caps are a common occurence in gas tanks. I even followed one of the tips from the internet and bought myself a strap wrench, sprayed the cap with WD 40 and tried to get it off. Ended up hurting my hand and feeling stupid and even more suicidal than before. I have quite weak muscles and most of the time I have to ask my friends to open up bottles for me, so I was no match for a 15KG gas tank. Now I am actually happy that I ordered a second tank, as I am planning to go to the pickup location and ask the guy who works there to let me see if the second cylinder can at all be opened. I might ask him to help me, although I am afraid to raise any suspicion. I mean, it's mostly tough 40 year old men who buy welding supplies and not people like me.
I have to say that the only thing that I am afraid of is failing and ending up with brain damage that will not let me finish the deed. That is why I have been thinking about combining the exit bag method with SN. I have already ordered 100g of it from Eastern Europe. Do you guys think it's a good idea? I would actually go with the SN method alone, since it seems to be so straight-forward, however, a year ago I used to have rather low blood pressure and actually fainted a couple of times, and it was a very unpleasant sensation. I would start panicking, my vision would gradually fade, I would gasp for air while feeling nauseous, et cetera. However, I can assure you that after you've actually fainted it can even feel nice for a few moments. I remember feeling waves of warmth spreading over my entire body. So, I am afraid that my potential CTB with SN will be much more unpleasant than simple fainting because it is a toxic chemical. However, I would still go with it if there were no other options left. What I was planning to do is taking SN with anti-emetics and then immediately putting on the exit bag after drinking the poison. This way I would probably lose consciousness in a few minutes before feeling sick or vomiting. I would still have to wait a few weeks until my SN arrives though, and I am not sure if that's what I really want.
Anyway, I should go and check if the second argon tank I ordered has a functioning protective cap. I will keep you updated.
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