CrocHead66
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- Oct 28, 2023
- 9
So my first attempt was with Lamictal (or however you spell it) and I took 90 of them fuckers and drank a ton of alcohol to kms. It would've worked had I not had texted a friend a short goodbye , while drunk. So I don't want to OD on the meds I have because I feel it will be suspicious or if I survive they'll take me off these meds which are the only things that work. Like if I survive another attempt then maybe I should stick it out and just accept that I can't be killed
But also even though they work I was dumb and started going to PHP (partial hospitalization program) and now I'm in 4000 USD of debt. So getting help wasn't even worth it because 4k is worth more than my life. Any ways I just want to know a good over the counter medication that'll get the job done and actually kill me. I'm not a chemical or sciences person so I don't really know what else to do.
So thanks to the replies bellow about OD-ing not working but it's the only method I have that's not gruesome. I have access to a pew pew but I don't want to do that it's gross. I think what I'm gonna do is drive out of state. I have a car and a license. Unfortunately my best friend that I live with does have my location but I can just turn it off at night when they go to bed and then I can leave. I, over the next day or two can go collect some pills and alcohol and basically run away. Or just to be on the safe side I have enough money to just buy another line and get a cheap second phone or even use an old smart phone I have and use the maps on there and just drive to my favourite state and enjoy my last day. I'll have to pull out cash so that they don't trace me to that state but I have enough to be able to do that. I know this is all very elaborate but I have to cover all my bases and I want to enjoy my last day or days. So running away to CTB. I feel at peace with this. Wish me luck - CrocHead
