Planning ctb, method suggestions?

[ThisSillyMindofMine]

First post! Here's a summary.
Have had suicidal ideation since age 9, have had multiple failed attempts with two landing me in the mental institution. First couple of times was with OTC pills, took as many as I could take and had my stomach pumped. Most recent attempt was with my prescription Zoloft and some booze.

Last 6 months have been some of my worst. Loved one died, spent the holidays alone and new years in the nut house, then lost my job, now behind on rent. I plan to CTB before putting any more burdens on my family, my ctb being my final thing that hurts them. I need this to work, but I quite literally can't afford any reliable methods and I don't have much to my disposal.

I've got bleach, OTC drugs, Zoloft and Ritalin, vodka and other cleaning supplies that could probably do a number on me. Any suggestions for reliable methods? Faster the better. Pain is ok, I'd just rather die in my home than via train where I'd most likely traumatize strangers.

I tried finding SN for cheap but just ran into dead ends. Any one have suggestions using household items? Or ways to make the methods above more reliable? If all else, I'll just try my prescription drugs again with more alcohol. The pain from my last attempts were pretty unbearable and SI was a bitch but I know what's in store now. If that fails too, train it is. Or I'll make a rope out of my bedsheets lol.

Just wanted to ask around. Been surfing through a bunch of threads on this site before making an account. Advice? Or even attempt stories would be appreciated. Would be informational but mostly it would help me feel less lonely in my past failures.

Thanks if you read all this. Have a good night

 

[mapleboy]

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[squirley]

I've got bleach,

Bleach ????? No....

OTC drugs, Zoloft and Ritalin, vodka

This is super risky and the amount.
Can cause damage...not ctb.

and other cleaning supplies that could probably do a number on me.

No. Especially not for ingesting.

Any suggestions for reliable methods? Faster the better. Pain is ok, I'd just rather die in my home than via train where I'd most likely traumatize strangers.

Which is understandable.

I tried finding SN for cheap but just ran into dead ends. Any one have suggestions using household items?

house hold such as ...

Or ways to make the methods above more reliable? If all else, I'll just try my prescription drugs again with more alcohol. The pain from my last attempts were pretty unbearable and SI was a bitch but I know what's in store now. If that fails too, train it is. Or I'll make a rope out of my bedsheets lol.

Just wanted to ask around. Been surfing through a bunch of threads on this site before making an account. Advice? Or even attempt stories would be appreciated. Would be informational but mostly it would help me feel less lonely in my past failures.

Thanks if you read all this. Have a good night

What threads did you read ? What methods

 

[FuneralCry]

I think that if people could easily ctb using household items or otc drugs then this site would never need to exist. It's just not straightforward to end our existence in this society where suicide isn't accepted as a valid option, it's just the reality, if you came here looking for an easy method then there just isn't one, methods like bleach and taking pills aren't really recommended, I think you would learn that by using the search function on here, pretty much every method has already been discussed.
There's information about methods in the suicide resource complination, but there's just no straightforward reliable way, if there was I would be long gone.

 

[Worndown]

Put down the bleach. That would just make your last year seem fun. (Don't want that)
Other meds are risky. Google can get you the pharmacology on drugs, interactions and toxicology. Not great reading but needed research. Whatever the method, you need to be informed to avoid failure or serious life changing damage.

 

[inmyhead]

No bleach. That would be an extremely painful way to go. A good option could be partial or full suspension hanging if you get it right.

 

[Worndown]

Rope is easy to aquire and gravity is always ready to help!