Help Plan went sideways

[Relief]

I need your help. I know of the megathread in hanging but loose tips do not fit what I'm seeking rn. I had planned to ctb from partial hanging with a necktie I ordered. It arrived today and I realized how difficult it is to physically kill myself. The psychological barrier is not much of a problem for me. Given the necktie does not work and I'm a bit anxious about having to plan it again what should I do? I'm too nervous/stressed/anxious/ill to think of this in a rational way

 

[woxihuanni]

Why don't you take a little rest and then look at mega threads, also vent/share as much as you like.