Plan to CTB - Will This Work?

[BlackHole]

I plan to CTB this Friday or Saturday night. I've decided to take 20 40mg OxyContin pills. So in total 800 mg of OxyContin. I will crush it and drink it so it absorbs into my bloodstream as fast as possible. Before taking the OxyContin I will vape a lot of hash oil and take about 20 0.25 mg clonazepam pills which is a benzodiazepine. That will be 7.5 mg of clonazepam. I've heard benzodiazepines can stop you from throwing up while also keeping you calm so I'm mainly taking them to stop me from throwing up the OxyContin. After drinking the crushed OxyContin I will take some 50 mg pills of trazodone to help me pass out quickly. I haven't decided how much trazodone to take but I can get hundreds of the 50 mg pills since I have a lot of prescriptions. I also have a lot of prescriptions for clonazepam so I can get more than 20 if I need to. After taking all the pills I plan to just keep vaping hash oil (80% THC) until I pass out. I'm five foot nine and approximately 160 lbs. I've never done any opiate before so I should have 0 tolerance for OxyContin. I really need this to work without messing it up. I don't want to fail and end up with brain damage which will be the most likely result of a failure. I need to figure this plan out quickly because my family called the police to do a wellness check on me today. My doctor and therapist also both expressed thoughts about having me sent to a psych ward so I feel like I'm running out of time. Do you think my plan will work? Should I take more clonazepam to stop me from throwing up? I think throwing up the OxyContin is the most likely way this plan will fail so the clonazepam dosage is probably key to the success of this plan. How much trazodone do you think I should take? I think I'm only going to get one shot at this so I have to do it right.

 

[oneeyed]

I'm curious about the benzos preventing you from vomiting, usually you want to use actual antiemetics. I question if 800mg of oxy is enough though.

Edit: upon some idle research, even 80mg of oxy to opiate naive can be dangerous. So 800 and benzos... Hard to say of course. ODs don't always have the best track record but strong opiates+other cns depressants seem more plausible for success versus other prescription drugs.

 

[CompanyOpossum]

Pills are basically never the answer. If you can get it it'll likely not kill you.

 

[BlackHole]

I'm curious about the benzos preventing you from vomiting, usually you want to use actual antiemetics. I question if 800mg of oxy is enough though.

Benzos are an antiemetic just not a very good one. Do you have a suggestion for a better antiemetic that I can get in Canada? I've been diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder and Anti Social Personality Disorder if that helps. How much oxy do you think I should use instead of 800 mg?

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Benzodiazapines. These are usually prescribed as anti-anxiety drugs but can sometimes help with nausea if it is caused by anxiety and stress.

Examples of benzodiazepines that can help with nausea include:

• Lorazepam (Ativan)
• Alprazolam (Xanax)

Pills are basically never the answer. If you can get it it'll likely not kill you.

Okay so what's a better option than pills? I could try to get Fentanyl from a drug dealer but I have no way of knowing the purity.

I'm curious about the benzos preventing you from vomiting, usually you want to use actual antiemetics. I question if 800mg of oxy is enough though.

Edit: upon some idle research, even 80mg of oxy to opiate naive can be dangerous. So 800 and benzos... Hard to say of course. ODs don't always have the best track record but strong opiates+other cns depressants seem more plausible for success versus other prescription drugs.

Yeah I read the same thing about 80 mg of oxy to the opiate naive. So 10 times that amount seems plausible. I also think I read that even among people with high tolerance the daily limit of oxy is not to exceed 360 mg. I can't find the LD50 for OxyContin anywhere otherwise I would just try to calculate a lethal dose. Do you have a better suggestion than trying to overdose? I don't really feel comfortable trying to get SN off the internet. I think I may get scammed or something and I don't know where to buy it.

 

[oneeyed]

All options have risk of not working. So I can't say I have any better options but for ODs, people tend to use their prescribed meds, it's what they have available. Thing is, a lot of modern medicine is quite safe. Combination of a strong opiate and other cns depressants increases the chance of respiratory depression that would lead to death. This is why fentanyl is so dangerous, it takes milligrams for a OD and its pressed into other counterfeit meds. Also note bioavailability would be decreased with ingestion.

 

[RoundaboutResolved]

Include alcohol/liquor

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I wish I knew more about your method so I could suggest something, but I don't. I still want to wish you the best of luck either way, because it sucks feeling trapped, especially when there's a good chance of being sent to a psych ward. I'm going to be using a vape pen too, so I'm interested in seeing how much it will help during the process.

 

[BlackHole]

Include alcohol/liquor

Yeah that was part of the original plan but I removed it from the plan due to the fact that liquor could cause me to puke and with all the pills I will be taking I really don't want to puke them up. Having another depressant like liquor would surely help the process but as I mentioned I think the most likely chance of failure will be me throwing up the OxyContin so I'm hesitant to include liquor even though I'm an experienced drinker. I have been reconsidering it and will continue thinking about adding liquor especially after your comment.

I wish I knew more about your method so I could suggest something, but I don't. I still want to wish you the best of luck either way, because it sucks feeling trapped, especially when there's a good chance of being sent to a psych ward. I'm going to be using a vape pen too, so I'm interested in seeing how much it will help during the process.

Thank you for your comment. I assume the vape pen will do what it usually does: make you relaxed and pass out. I only smoke/vape Indica. If you plan on vaping during your exit I would recommend an Indica strain not a hybrid or sativa since they don't really sedate as effectively as Indica does.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

Thank you for your comment. I assume the vape pen will do what it usually does: make you relaxed and pass out. I only smoke/vape Indica. If you plan on vaping during your exit I would recommend an Indica strain not a hybrid or sativa since they don't really sedate as effectively as Indica does.

I just went for a really strong one, without worrying about whether it was Indica or not. Maybe that's what I should've gotten, but it's something else. I won't say what right now, because people IRL know I got one to try. Still, I definitely love Indica and it's very relaxing, so I'll probably get one of those later on.

Hopefully bumping your thread caught the attention of some knowledgeable people. We have a few members who know a lot about certain methods, but I'm not sure how much they know about yours. I also wanted to say I like your name. Sometimes it feels like we're stuck in a black hole we can't get out of, doesn't it?

 

[that smell]

Have you taken trazadone before? 50-100mg should be enough without tolerance. I used to take 300mg a night after building up a tolerance but the stuff knocks you out quick.

800mg of Oxy seems like a lot to me, especially for someone with no tolerance. I wonder though if taking so much is counter productive since you'll be more likely to vomit. Maybe less is actually more? I really have no idea though.

Good luck with what you decide. I wish I had more knowledge to share.

 

[BlackHole]

I just went for a really strong one, without worrying about whether it was Indica or not. Maybe that's what I should've gotten, but it's something else. I won't say what right now, because people IRL know I got one to try. Still, I definitely love Indica and it's very relaxing, so I'll probably get one of those later on.

Hopefully bumping your thread caught the attention of some knowledgeable people. We have a few members who know a lot about certain methods, but I'm not sure how much they know about yours. I also wanted to say I like your name. Sometimes it feels like we're stuck in a black hole we can't get out of, doesn't it?

Thanks for bumping the thread. Yeah it does feel like that. I wanted a name that describes how I feel.

Have you taken trazadone before? 50-100mg should be enough without tolerance. I used to take 300mg a night after building up a tolerance but the stuff knocks you out quick.

800mg of Oxy seems like a lot to me, especially for someone with no tolerance. I wonder though if taking so much is counter productive since you'll be more likely to vomit. Maybe less is actually more? I really have no idea though.

Good luck with what you decide. I wish I had more knowledge to share.

I've been taking 75 mg of Trazodone every night for over a year so I have a bit of tolerance. 800 mg of Oxy seems like a lot to me too. I have thought about the fact you brought up which is that taking that much with no tolerance could be counterproductive and make me vomit. You're right less could be more. It seems like a hard balancing act to take enough for it to be a lethal dose while also not taking so much that you vomit and fail. Thanks for your wishes and help. I'm starting to lose hope in my plan because of things brought up in this thread but I'm becoming more frustrated with my situation every day. At this point I don't know what to do. Maybe I'll try to get fentanyl since that seems to be easy to OD on.