Plan for N

[ddd1234]

I realized that obtaining N is not so easy. Look at this:

1. Find a proper email to D (that's easy)
2. Get some cryptocurrency (that's easy or hard depending on your experience)
3. Order N and let's hope that D will send you the product and not scam you
4. Have hope, that your product will not be discovered by customs.
5. Test the product with the exit test kit and send it to the lab
6. Have hope that your product is not expired
7. Buy some AE, which is almost as hard as buying N
8. Follow the fast regime
8. Find a peaceful place, where nobody disturbs you
9. Overcome SI
10. Don't vomit
11. Die peacefully

Doesn't sound easy especially if you are drained of energy because of depression :(

 

[sanguineblade]

based on other info here i think 5 and 6 are not reason to worry

 

[ddd1234]

based on other info here i think 5 and 6 are not reason to worry

wishful thinking

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I realized that obtaining N is not so easy. Look at this:

1. Find a proper email to D (that's easy)
2. Get some cryptocurrency (that's easy or hard depending on your experience)
3. Order N and let's hope that D will send you the product and not scam you
4. Have hope, that your product will not be discovered by customs.
5. Test the product with the exit test kit and send it to the lab
6. Have hope that your product is not expired
7. Buy some AE, which is almost as hard as buying N
8. Follow the fast regime
8. Find a peaceful place, where nobody disturbs you
9. Overcome SI
10. Don't vomit
11. Die peacefully

Doesn't sound easy especially if you are drained of energy because of depression :(

Based on other peoples experience most of these do not seem to be serious challenges… The cryptocurrency thing sounds like a plan… And finding a peaceful place where no one disturbs you or discovers you could be a challenge depending on your circumstances… Is there a big chance of vomiting? The people I talked to have mostly had positive experiences

 

[porhtna]

wait who did you talk to lol, if it went positively they shouldn't be able to talk.. ( no offense just curious

 

[supermario]

I realized that obtaining N is not so easy. Look at this:

1. Find a proper email to D (that's easy)
2. Get some cryptocurrency (that's easy or hard depending on your experience)
3. Order N and let's hope that D will send you the product and not scam you
4. Have hope, that your product will not be discovered by customs.
5. Test the product with the exit test kit and send it to the lab
6. Have hope that your product is not expired
7. Buy some AE, which is almost as hard as buying N
8. Follow the fast regime
8. Find a peaceful place, where nobody disturbs you
9. Overcome SI
10. Don't vomit
11. Die peacefully

Doesn't sound easy especially if you are drained of energy because of depression :(

Still a heck of a lot better than most other methods if you ask me.

 

[ddd1234]

Still a heck of a lot better than most other methods if you ask me.

Really? For hanging:
1. Buy a rope (easy)
2. Find a ligature point (hard)
3. Find a peaceful place, where nobody disturbs you
4. Overcome SI
5. Die

 

[supermario]

Really? For hanging:
1. Buy a rope (easy)
2. Find a ligature point (hard)
3. Find a peaceful place, where nobody disturbs you
4. Overcome SI
5. Die

You forget incredible (potentially) pain and SI to overcome, at least for me.

 

[ddd1234]

You forget incredible (potentially) pain and SI to overcome, at least for me.

Maybe pain doesn't last long... I don't know. Perhaps SI is the same, no matter the method you choose.

 

[enau]

2. Get some cryptocurrency (that's easy or hard depending on your experience)
still dont get it, too much step, i ve my passport/id ready now btw(the old one was legit but for some reason not legit at the same time, too damaged or wahtever, , so crypto website like binance refused it), i want the easier way, monero and bitnovo , + finding an safe seller /buyer for crypto is not really an easy way.. dont get this stuff, its extremely hard to have interest in this, in peculiar painful mental state, +
i barely have the energy to eat.. if only someone could do that for me, or if only i knew about cyptostuff before i fell so siick, but of course it will be a scammer .I dont even find a proper tutorial for beginner in my langage
I am in a slow resignation, that everything will be painful until the end, and I will perhaps have to choose a painful death (jump from a very very VERY high place )

 

[dyingalone123]

Really? For hanging:
1. Buy a rope (easy)
2. Find a ligature point (hard)
3. Find a peaceful place, where nobody disturbs you
4. Overcome SI
5. Die

Takes an hour or two - hopefully people don't find you or you end up like a vegetable

 

[ddd1234]

Takes an hour or two - hopefully people don't find you or you end up like a vegetable

Really 2 hours? That sounds terrible...

 

[PeacefulTonic]

Why does it seem like you are constantly trying to dissuade others from trying to obtain N?

 

[Quiet Desperation]

To an impartial observer who has done an obsessive amount of research on this topic, here's how your list reads:

9. Overcome SI

There's nothing wrong with that per se, because living is a fine option that I wish I could choose myself. However, I do wish there was less fear and anxiety around what is already a very stressful topic in a community full of vulnerable people.

If you haven't ordered there is a reason why, and that's okay. This is a last resort after all.

 

[Interloper]

2. Get some cryptocurrency (that's easy or hard depending on your experience)
still dont get it, too much step, i ve my passport/id ready now btw(the old one was legit but for some reason not legit at the same time, too damaged or wahtever, , so crypto website like binance refused it), i want the easier way, monero and bitnovo , + finding an safe seller /buyer for crypto is not really an easy way.. dont get this stuff, its extremely hard to have interest in this, in peculiar painful mental state, +
i barely have the energy to eat.. if only someone could do that for me, or if only i knew about cyptostuff before i fell so siick, but of course it will be a scammer .I dont even find a proper tutorial for beginner in my langage
I am in a slow resignation, that everything will be painful until the end, and I will perhaps have to choose a painful death (jump from a very very VERY high place )

Have you tried Kraken? They have several options to confirm your identity, I just gave them my most recent phone bill. Or coinbase, but their fees are much higher.

 

[enau]

i will try, i have to.Im usualy very slow to have interest in a new subject, and with this existential dread grade ss of depression , its so hard.But no choice.Struglle for everything.(Heyyyyy , in my first messages on this website, i asked if becoming volunteer in pet' rescuer could be a good idea for finding(steal) N.But i found a potentialy place in a VETERINARY SCHOOL , and there is a plan of the pharmacy room(but its a vet' for wild animal , mostly bird, idk if they use n).So it is almost possible.. except i would have to work for freee for 3 weeks and that im not vaccined/ dont have co vide sanitary pass)

 

[intr0verse]

Really 2 hours? That sounds terrible...

Indeed, it may take up to 2 hours, but you'll only be aware of the first 5 minutes or so.