Places to CTB with SN

[crystalskies31]

I'm struggling a bit with finding a good place to CTB.

Having looked on a popular accommodation website, a lot of the places look beautiful / scenic and I would feel bad doing that to someone in such a nice place.

With some of them it can be hard to know for sure you'd not be disturbed, either. Many cabins etc are on someone's property where they are close by, so it's hard to have privacy.

And, some part of me still feels bad I'm considering this, like I think I'm special, rather than being a normal member of society, or something. But it's just so painful to live. (Many reasons). Because of my shame about this, I really want to not be discovered. Hence I'm struggling to find a good place, one that won't make me feel guilty, but also is cheap and I won't be disturbed.

Home is not possible as I live with others.
Hotels I am not sure because I've read reports of people being found because the people in the room next door heard them. I know SN can cause loud noises from the accounts. I think I may have to go back to my initial idea of maybe renting a whole place such as an apartment.

Any help appreciated. Thanks

 

[NobodyKnowsMe]

A motel in a somewhat shady part of town (or if you happen to know where the druggies & prostitutes hang out). Nobody there will worry about noises in the rooms. If you check in early/mid afternoon, put out the Do Not Disturb sign (if they have one) and take the stuff pretty much right away, you should be safe on time. Housekeeping shouldn't come barging in until roughly mid-morning the next day.

 

[TheLastFemaphrodyke]

I'm struggling a bit with finding a good place to CTB.

Having looked on a popular accommodation website, a lot of the places look beautiful / scenic and I would feel bad doing that to someone in such a nice place.

With some of them it can be hard to know for sure you'd not be disturbed, either. Many cabins etc are on someone's property where they are close by, so it's hard to have privacy.

And, some part of me still feels bad I'm considering this, like I think I'm special, rather than being a normal member of society, or something. But it's just so painful to live. (Many reasons). Because of my shame about this, I really want to not be discovered. Hence I'm struggling to find a good place, one that won't make me feel guilty, but also is cheap and I won't be disturbed.

Home is not possible as I live with others.
Hotels I am not sure because I've read reports of people being found because the people in the room next door heard them. I know SN can cause loud noises from the accounts. I think I may have to go back to my initial idea of maybe renting a whole place such as an apartment.

Any help appreciated. Thanks

I resigned myself to the fact that I will have to be out in the wilderness. That prevents being found and resolves the guilt of wanting for once in my life, the being special, and being able to at least leave this world in comfort, but sullying someones home or place of business. Not happy about it because I love being outdoors, but I hate sitting on the dirt, being on the dirt, being cold, damp, wet, you know wilderness stuff. I am too old and out of shape to carry camping equipment with me far enough in, so I will not be able to make a camp and be comfortable and not alone in the end. I am already alone. Just need the courage to leave my kitties behind and walk away. This is the only way I can prevent being found and not have the guilt that will come with any human occupied area.

A motel in a somewhat shady part of town (or if you happen to know where the druggies & prostitutes hang out). Nobody there will worry about noises in the rooms. If you check in early/mid afternoon, put out the Do Not Disturb sign (if they have one) and take the stuff pretty much right away, you should be safe on time. Housekeeping shouldn't come barging in until roughly mid-morning the next day.

druggies and hookers are druggies and hookers for a reason, should I really give them more of a reason, maybe push them over the edge the way I have been? Yep, I don't want to be alone, in the wilderness, but like all sick animals that know they are dying, go off alone to die, that is what I will do.

 

[NobodyKnowsMe]

druggies and hookers are druggies and hookers for a reason, should I really give them more of a reason, maybe push them over the edge the way I have been? Yep, I don't want to be alone, in the wilderness, but like all sick animals that know they are dying, go off alone to die, that is what I will do.

To each their own. @crystalskies31 asked for some additional suggestions, so I offered her one.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I think I may have to go back to my initial idea of maybe renting a whole place such as an apartment.

I don't understand how an apartment is any different than a motel or hotel? Aren't their common walls in each between the different rooms?

 

[TheLastFemaphrodyke]

To each their own. @crystalskies31 asked for some additional suggestions, so I offered her one.

just my two cents, that is all, I really sounded rude when I reread this and truly did not mean to, apologies for my curtness

 

[Julgran]

I'm struggling a bit with finding a good place to CTB.

Having looked on a popular accommodation website, a lot of the places look beautiful / scenic and I would feel bad doing that to someone in such a nice place.

With some of them it can be hard to know for sure you'd not be disturbed, either. Many cabins etc are on someone's property where they are close by, so it's hard to have privacy.

And, some part of me still feels bad I'm considering this, like I think I'm special, rather than being a normal member of society, or something. But it's just so painful to live. (Many reasons). Because of my shame about this, I really want to not be discovered. Hence I'm struggling to find a good place, one that won't make me feel guilty, but also is cheap and I won't be disturbed.

Home is not possible as I live with others.
Hotels I am not sure because I've read reports of people being found because the people in the room next door heard them. I know SN can cause loud noises from the accounts. I think I may have to go back to my initial idea of maybe renting a whole place such as an apartment.

Any help appreciated. Thanks

Personally, I'm considering taking SN outdoors, in a forest or meadow. That way, no one will probably interrupt the process, and the environment itself is peaceful.

 

[outatime_85]

If I can't do it at home, then somewhere in the mountains, and since I like trail running and hiking, no one would be the wiser.

My body would probably be found by other hikers long after it is all over.

 

[PoorFarmer]

What kind of loud noises will we make when we take SN? I was hoping to take SN, lay down on the couch, pass out & "sleep" while my family is in there rooms. Then my family could find my body 7-8 hrs later

 

[zatoichi]

I resigned myself to the fact that I will have to be out in the wilderness. That prevents being found and resolves the guilt of wanting for once in my life, the being special, and being able to at least leave this world in comfort, but sullying someones home or place of business. Not happy about it because I love being outdoors, but I hate sitting on the dirt, being on the dirt, being cold, damp, wet, you know wilderness stuff. I am too old and out of shape to carry camping equipment with me far enough in, so I will not be able to make a camp and be comfortable and not alone in the end. I am already alone. Just need the courage to leave my kitties behind and walk away. This is the only way I can prevent being found and not have the guilt that will come with any human occupied area.

druggies and hookers are druggies and hookers for a reason, should I really give them more of a reason, maybe push them over the edge the way I have been? Yep, I don't want to be alone, in the wilderness, but like all sick animals that know they are dying, go off alone to die, that is what I will do.

This is exactly how I wanna go. In a deep forest or a mountain. And, same as you, I just don't wanna bother myself with camping, moving, carrying stuff etc. before ctb.