May I ask, why do you want CTB?
I worked for high level government lol. When they decide to destroy you, they're very thorough. They have all the power. I have no choice. They've stalked me for 5 years, learned as much as they could about me, then started implementing a campaign to get me to self-destruct or otherwise do things that they could use to maneuver me into vulnerable positions or destroy my reputation. That's how they do it in politics and in the upper echelons of society where they have access to vast resources, technology you would not believe, and power. They can even contract out reputation destruction to companies dedicated specifically to doing that. Game of Thrones. You hear about all these "scandals" in politics, right. Who uncovers those scandals? Are they all just happenstance, or are some manufactured?
A good chess player knows when they're beat, even 10-15 moves before the end of the game.
Just having accomplishments isn't enough to survive. It's not just accomplishments you have to gain; you also have to know how to navigate the social powers and the shadow politics. Those accomplishments are a breeding ground of sharks and snakes all looking to get their piece or destroy those around them who threaten their position. Or simply because they're hungry and want to devour something, and that's what they're used to doing to succeed. House of Cards/Game of Thrones, take your pick. It's real, how they play dirty.
It is, quite simply, war. And I lost. I live in constant fear. And monitoring. And harassment. I've been broken down physically, emotionally, socially, financially--every aspect has been carefully and systematically analyzed and attacked over a period of years. I struggled as long as I could.
I will take my future into my own hands, rather than being devoured.
That also makes it more difficult, though, too. I don't want to die. I could have a great life if it weren't for them. But I have to.