Perhaps goodbye...

[cu1len]

I'm ready, I'll let you know if it doesn't work. Thank you for guiding me down the path right for me :)

 

[Duqu]

My nana actually used to be an English teacher and because of that I've grown up in a grammar enforced family and the correct phrase is "my brother and I". It's kinda funny that I'm on my last hour and fighting over grammar XD I'm glad

I'm not fighting! I was always taught to remove the "brother and" part and just think of it as "got custody over I" which doesn't make sense; it would have to be Me. I could of course be wrong. I apologize if I am and if it seems like I'm being too aggressive -- it's YOUR LETTER so write it however you want!

 

[Anterograde]

I am only new but I wish you all the best, it sounds like you are the victim of another persons shame.

If you don't make it today there is always another time.

 

[cu1len]

I'm not fighting! I was always taught to remove the "brother and" part and just think of it as "got custody over I" which doesn't make sense; it would have to be Me. I could of course be wrong. I apologize if I am and if it seems like I'm being too aggressive -- it's YOUR LETTER so write it however you want!

Nah it's fine heh I don't mean angry fighting

 

[cu1len]

Welp first failed attempt of the night, I need a better place to tie my noose so I'm thinking tying it to my door knob and pulling over the other side of the door? I have a pretty low ceiling and nowhere to really hang it so I just tied it to one of the hooks on my wall and layed down my head really hurts now

 

[cu1len]

Oof I just want to ctb already and my first method doesn't work and it's almost midnight so I can't do my second method (jumping from a building). After my dad goes to bed I'm thinking of looking through some of his pills or sifting through stuff on top of the cupboards and in the medicine cabinet (which isn't a great idea but it's all I really got)

 

[pole]

I think I'm going to go for it tonight. This will be my second attempt and while I'm scared, I know I'm just going to keep putting it off with the false hope of things getting better. While my time in this world and on this site has been short, it has taught me a lot. On this site I was able to learn so much more about people, and myself that I would never have realized before. I have met kinder people here than anywhere else. May all of you have peace and reach your goal. Now I'm off to write notes and tie a noose. I recommend the family friendly noose song. I'll be listening to it on my way out :). Goodbye, hopefully.

Hope you find the peace you and us are all looking for. May we meet again. Sleep easy.

 

[TheCrow]

I'm not fighting! I was always taught to remove the "brother and" part and just think of it as "got custody over I" which doesn't make sense; it would have to be Me. I could of course be wrong. I apologize if I am and if it seems like I'm being too aggressive -- it's YOUR LETTER so write it however you want!

I second this, and I used to be an English teacher! You would say "my brother and I" if it was the subject of the sentence, for example: "My brother and I went to the baseball game."

 

[TiredHorse]

After my dad goes to bed I'm thinking of looking through some of his pills or sifting through stuff on top of the cupboards and in the medicine cabinet (which isn't a great idea but it's all I really got)

No no no no no! Please don't! This is a really bad idea. OTC overdose pretty much doesn't work, and even prescription OD is highly unlikely --Big Pharma has made most of their products damnably OD-safe.

Attempting an OD, there's too good a chance you'll end up in the hospital with the situation much worse. If nothing else, it'll reveal your plans and make a successful attempt much less likely for later.

I'm sorry things went so poorly with your first attempt, but please, if you possibly can, rest for the night, catch your breath, and rethink everything for a better chance later. Pharma ODs never end well.

 

[cu1len]

No no no no no! Please don't! This is a really bad idea. OTC overdose pretty much doesn't work, and even prescription OD is highly unlikely --Big Pharma has made most of their products damnably OD-safe.

Attempting an OD, there's too good a chance you'll end up in the hospital with the situation much worse. If nothing else, it'll reveal your plans and make a successful attempt much less likely for later.

I'm sorry things went so poorly with your first attempt, but please, if you possibly can, rest for the night, catch your breath, and rethink everything for a better chance later. Pharma ODs never end well.

I know I changed my mind. I'm going back to my first attempt and learning from my mistakes I've got a knife and everything and I'm set up with some painkillers (not too heavy)

 

[TiredHorse]

I know I changed my mind. I'm going back to my first attempt and learning from my mistakes I've got a knife and everything and I'm set up with some painkillers (not too heavy)

You're going to think me a pro-lifer for certain --or at the very least a terrible Negative Ned-- but cutting is almost as bad a choice as OD. I tried it when I was 15 and it didn't go well. It's a lot more difficult than you might think.

I can hear in your words how awful everything is and how badly you need to go, but if you don't pause and plan this out more carefully, it will not end well for anyone, least of all you.

 

[BlackDragonof1989]

*hugs you very warmly*

 

[Philip]

I know I changed my mind. I'm going back to my first attempt and learning from my mistakes I've got a knife and everything and I'm set up with some painkillers (not too heavy)

Hope you find your peace tonight

 

[cu1len]

You're going to think me a pro-lifer for certain --or at the very least a terrible Negative Ned-- but cutting is almost as bad a choice as OD. I tried it when I was 15 and it didn't go well. It's a lot more difficult than you might think.

I can hear in your words how awful everything is and how badly you need to go, but if you don't pause and plan this out more carefully, it will not end well for anyone, least of all you.

I agree that it's not a great way to go but I've got nowhere to tie my noose, I can't jump, I don't have any sort of drug (sn or n) and the next best choice for me is suffocation or drowning myself in my bathtub or even going outside in the thunder storm and giving myself hypothermia

 

[Redt2go]

I agree that it's not a great way to go but I've got nowhere to tie my noose, I can't jump, I don't have any sort of drug (sn or n) and the next best choice for me is suffocation or drowning myself in my bathtub or even going outside in the thunder storm and giving myself hypothermia

I agree with tiredhorse that you should jist sleep but I also can't sleep myself lol want to play 20 questions? I'm bored and everything but this site reminds of the reason I want to die

 

[Redt2go]

Not trying to stall you just can't sleep.

 

[cu1len]

I agree with tiredhorse that you should jist sleep but I also can't sleep myself lol want to play 20 questions? I'm bored and everything but this site reminds of the reason I want to die

Sure I'm down for 20 questions. I've gotta get my stuff together and there is no way in hell im sleeping tonight too much has happened lol

 

[cu1len]

I made a conversation unless u want to do it here

 

[TiredHorse]

I agree that it's not a great way to go but I've got nowhere to tie my noose, I can't jump, I don't have any sort of drug (sn or n) and the next best choice for me is suffocation or drowning myself in my bathtub or even going outside in the thunder storm and giving myself hypothermia

Opportunity will arise. If not tonight, then at a time when you can be more assured of success than fearful of failure. Tomorrow will be especially awful because tomorrow always is, after a failed attempt, but take comfort knowing that tomorrow will bring new doors to open in search of success.

Wait, plan, prepare, succeed.

In the meantime, 20 Questions sounds like a great idea. It's bedtime for me, so I'll leave you two to it.

 

[cu1len]

As you can tell, I didn't ctb last night but I'm preparing to do it tonight, as my family are moving a wardrobe into my room. I've tossed the knife method out the window and I've got some solid ropes to use for my noose.

 

[Pegasus]

I hope all goes well my friend. Good luck.

 

[21Neberg]

As you can tell, I didn't ctb last night but I'm preparing to do it tonight, as my family are moving a wardrobe into my room. I've tossed the knife method out the window and I've got some solid ropes to use for my noose.

Sounds like you're preparing well! I wish you the best of luck in overcoming your survival instinct, and I hope we both find our peace soon.

 

[Dead_Inside]

You have all the luck that I have to give. There will be peace for you and a swift end to the pain this life has given you. Take your time - this is your action, it's selfish and purposeful enjoy it.
Grab me on your way out ok? I can't seem to find my way....

 

[Partial-Elf]

Heres a good cheap and reliable thing to use as an anchor when all you have access to is a door. Much better than handle. It's what I'm using

https://www.amazon.com/DYNAPRO-Anch...coding=UTF8&psc=1&refRID=HS2NNJVMQN5TMW1WTX8C

 

[Xerxes]

What's friendly family noose song? "99 bodies hanging around, 99 bodies hanging...take one down, bury him in the ground, 98 bodies hanging around...." is that how it goes. Good luck mate! May you find your peace in darkness.

 

[cu1len]

What's friendly family noose song? "99 bodies hanging around, 99 bodies hanging...take one down, bury him in the ground, 98 bodies hanging around...." is that how it goes. Good luck mate! May you find your peace in darkness.

Actually the family friendly noose song is on YouTube and it teaches you how to tie a noose and ways not to use a noose for ctb. It's kinda funny but also not

 

[color_me_gone]

kinda funny but also not

i sincerely hope you find the peace you need.

Here is hugs to you.