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beyond_aquila_rift

beyond_aquila_rift

Student
May 11, 2020
103
I keep reliving my perfect ctb moment but I don't ctb.

I go for a run. I get an incredible high. I feel calm and ready to die.

I think in that moment. Why is it so hard to ctb peacefully at my own will. Why can't I end this incredible feeling with the nothingness I need.


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GravityUtilizer

GravityUtilizer

Born to lose
May 22, 2020
737
I know what you mean; I get runner's high too. I'm genuinely thinking of running off a cliff.
 
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BridgeJumper

BridgeJumper

The Arsonist
Apr 7, 2019
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I love going on ridiculously long walks and imagining the Perfect Jump in my head
 
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