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[Flying Away]

We live in a world that if you tell people what you need to help you recover you get everything but. Talking is cheap but thats all people offer like its some great cure all, its not. Ive tried to help people with practical solutions not just words. Now I need practical help the same people are too self absorbed to care. I have BPD and while therapy has helped the suicidal thoughts remain. No one can help with the practicall side of recovery so I try again and agin to ctb. Failure makes thingss worse and me more determined to succeed. Have had a glimmer of hope but it begins to fade slowly. Im 58 and fought and fought this. Sometimes succeeding sometimes succumbing and always failing. Two people could save me, one is trying but cant find another to help me, there is no one who cares enough. In the end the inevitable will happen. Failed three times this year and given hope twice. All fading fast now. Next attempt will work. Just wish someone cared enough to save me

 

[SuicidalPlushie]

i'm sorry you feel alone and hopeless, some people does care but they really don't know what to do as they don't see obvious solutions just talking and give words to comfort, and some are just having their own problems and can't help, for the practical side usually hard for other people to figure what will make you feel better, finding coping methods which you only know they work for you and trying to change perspective about life can help, for me if i was not so suicidal i would write books and songs but too late, what do you think the practical things that will help you get better?

 

[FinalDestiny]

I honestly agree with you. People in this life truly don't care about others needs. At least I haven't met anyone who didn't care solely for themselves.

I grew up thinking that maybe there was something wrong with me. I lived by the tennant of treating others as you would expect to be treated. However every single individual in my life has subsequently taken advantage of me and now there are those even abusing me for trying to be just a little selfish to benefit myself. /rant?

I can't say I know what you've been through to get to this point in your life now. I only know my own story. I truthfully understand how you feel though.

Isolation and an unwavering determination are no friends of mine but they are familiar. Success and failure on this topic seems to come fleetingly as my mood wanes from super positive to super negative.
I'm constantly in pain and now always paranoid (thanks to one of my neighbors stalking me).
I used to try to cling onto the people around me as a means of "finding the reason" to live. It never worked, and mostly ends up with the relationship/ friendship blowing up. I'm unsure whether it's because they're giving 100% and I'm not, but I suspect it may be just that.
This was me at a toxic point in life (I'm not too far from who that person used to be honestly).

All of this, just for me to say. I'm sorry that you're sitting here alone at this stage of your life. I'm truly sorry that the people in your life have not been good supports and that you haven't had the opportunity to experience a stable and nourishing relationship. I hope that one day you will find peace, love and that support you need.
While we may not know each other, I am glad that you are here and that you shared this with us.

It may be slightly selfish of me and I am sorry about being just another one of those people in your life but, just knowing that I am not alone in feeling these exact pains helps me immensely. I always felt very alone and that I was the only person that felt like this. Your post sincerely helps me with my growth. I hope that I can do something similar with my own to you.

 

[Flying Away]

i'm sorry you feel alone and hopeless, some people does care but they really don't know what to do as they don't see obvious solutions just talking and give words to comfort, and some are just having their own problems and can't help, for the practical side usually hard for other people to figure what will make you feel better, finding coping methods which you only know they work for you and trying to change perspective about life can help, for me if i was not so suicidal i would write books and songs but too late, what do you think the practical things that will help you get better?

I know what I need but no one prepared to help. I was diagnosed with mental health problems 44 years ago. My solutions are simple if only people would step up. But there is only me left. And last piece of the puzzle seems unsolvable. I held hope after last week and decided one more week. I pleaded for help but even on here was ignored. Even on here im just worthless. Coping methods wear off without support in time.

i'm sorry you feel alone and hopeless, some people does care but they really don't know what to do as they don't see obvious solutions just talking and give words to comfort, and some are just having their own problems and can't help, for the practical side usually hard for other people to figure what will make you feel better, finding coping methods which you only know they work for you and trying to change perspective about life can help, for me if i was not so suicidal i would write books and songs but too late, what do you think the practical things that will help you get better?

Its ok people on here respond with likes and hugs but that doesnt change the fact i need help now. Not emojis. Sorry if this seems harsh but easiest options are to makes others feel better not the person in need

 

[SuicidalPlushie]

I know what I need but no one prepared to help. I was diagnosed with mental health problems 44 years ago. My solutions are simple if only people would step up. But there is only me left. And last piece of the puzzle seems unsolvable. I held hope after last week and decided one more week. I pleaded for help but even on here was ignored. Even on here im just worthless. Coping methods wear off without support in time.

Its ok people on here respond with likes and hugs but that doesnt change the fact i need help now. Not emojis. Sorry if this seems harsh but easiest options are to makes others feel better not the person in need

i'm sorry everyone disappointed you and didn't help, being lonely in this battle is really hard and painful to face alone, and don't try to think you are worthless here or ignored everyone here have a value whatever age or situation they are in, yes coping will wear off without people to support you in relapsing moments and i can't help with this problem as i already suffer from it.

 

[FuneralCry]

I feel like many people are very selfish and only care about what directly affect themselves and that is just the way that people are. To me, people can be disappointing and unreliable. This life really is so depressing and it sounds like you have suffered for a long time. I'm sorry that it has come to this point for you.