I was diagnosed with deterioration in two cervical discs and it is hard to get through the day. I have been very healthy my whole life and now I feel my life is over. Spinal pain is something that no one understands until they feel it themselves (I was in this category a short while ago), so no one gives a fuck and expects you to operate normally. I can't exercise or lift heavy things anymore and I fucking hate the situation that I am in.
Just out of curiosity - did you all take vaccination for covid? If yes, when, how many doses and which brand?
Scattered-Soul
It was an indescribable pain
- Oct 2, 2023
- 163
I have, 2 doses of Pfizer but it was almost 2 years after I got disabled so the two aren't connected at all, the vaccinations didn't impact me negatively whatsoever.
jbear824
F*ck humanity. Let's end this.
- Jul 4, 2023
- 409
I mean, that's why I'm here. Chronic and treatment resistant mental illness and severe physical problems. All of which pretty much prevent me from interacting with the world. I just want it to end.
Having a physical body is such a pain in the ass sometimes. With all the can go wrong it's amazing that many people live their lives relatively unencumbered, but for others the suffering is substantial and unrelenting. I feel ashamed, as my discomfort with my body pales in comparison with the suffering of the people posting here - I should be grateful, I'm told, because my childhood surgery eas considered a cure - but five decades later I'm just exhausted, my mangled and scarred body sucking the joy out of me.
Thank you for sharing, it helps me feel glad to be alive. Life will eventually end for all of us, we have that in common. I look forward to it.
Thank you for sharing, it helps me feel glad to be alive. Life will eventually end for all of us, we have that in common. I look forward to it.
GhostShell
Member
- Dec 5, 2023
- 81
2x pfizer and 1x pfizer booster. Vaccination in 2021, booster january 2022.
Had covid in september 2023, long covid started after a seriously stressful trigger in october 2023. Dying slowly and painfully ever since.
Catch-22
But in the end it doesn't even matter...š¢
- Aug 19, 2019
- 234
I have Lyme disease too... I think I've had it since birth. Had lots of signs of pans / pandas but no one got me checked out or took me to the doctors. For decades they told me I have fibromyalgia and then last year by accident I found out I have Lyme disease and Co infections. I have Lyme disease, two types of Bartonella and babesia. And then on top of everything I find out that I can't even treat for these diseases because my body is riddled with fungus from living in a mold infested house. They said my immune system is compromised and that I would not be able to clear these infections. Decades of fucking torture.. mentally and physically time is running out and I fear within a few years I will be even sicker and on the streets.. believe me I feel for you
pthnrdnojvsc
Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
- Aug 12, 2019
- 2,489
voidstar
time heals nothing.
- Jan 7, 2024
- 137
The list is long, but I've been suicidal and depressed even before I got my disabilities.
The BPD, PTSD and ADHD cause me immense mood swings and trust issues along with often forgetting things, issues with sleeping and immense anger issues.
Once I got diagnosed with multiple sclerosis that added a bunch of other shit as well, namely crippling chronic pain from trigeminus neuralgia and the bonus of now having celiac disease which means no gluten EVER or my intestines will go up in flames and lactose intolerance. I'm now also needing to use a cane to get around at only 29 and half of my body is paralyzed/numb all the time.
It is what is it.
The BPD, PTSD and ADHD cause me immense mood swings and trust issues along with often forgetting things, issues with sleeping and immense anger issues.
Once I got diagnosed with multiple sclerosis that added a bunch of other shit as well, namely crippling chronic pain from trigeminus neuralgia and the bonus of now having celiac disease which means no gluten EVER or my intestines will go up in flames and lactose intolerance. I'm now also needing to use a cane to get around at only 29 and half of my body is paralyzed/numb all the time.
It is what is it.
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No but I wanted to say- my heart hurts for all of you. I don't think I could cope with chronic physical pain. I've had a taste of it. I had a lot of trouble with gallstones at one point and one eventually moved into the bile duct.
My Grandma lived with daily pain though and I don't know how she coped. I think it's utterly barbaric that people should be expected to put up with a life with chronic pain in it. How can we call ourselves a compassionate or even intelligent race when we could ease that pain but don't? That's f*cked up!
If it's down to religion ultimately (although- it's more likely to do with money I suspect,) that's an unfair argument because- not everyone is religious. Religion isn't law. If they want to stipulate that religion is factual- then- they need to prove that it is! Otherwise- it's just as plausible to argue that the Easter Bunny is a strong proponent of assisted suicide. Although- maybe something Halloween themed would be more appropriate... Not to mock though. I just can't fathom as to how people cope with pain. I'm so sorry.
My Grandma lived with daily pain though and I don't know how she coped. I think it's utterly barbaric that people should be expected to put up with a life with chronic pain in it. How can we call ourselves a compassionate or even intelligent race when we could ease that pain but don't? That's f*cked up!
If it's down to religion ultimately (although- it's more likely to do with money I suspect,) that's an unfair argument because- not everyone is religious. Religion isn't law. If they want to stipulate that religion is factual- then- they need to prove that it is! Otherwise- it's just as plausible to argue that the Easter Bunny is a strong proponent of assisted suicide. Although- maybe something Halloween themed would be more appropriate... Not to mock though. I just can't fathom as to how people cope with pain. I'm so sorry.
Sounds like we were plucked from the same vine. But at least I won't be on the streets with my family taking care of me. I am sorry.
KuriGohan&Kamehameha
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- Nov 23, 2020
- 1,682
I have had health issues since I was 17, and 7 years later I'm in complete hell. My hands, legs, and feet are struck with peripheral neuropathy, I'm permanently fatigued and exhausted, my legs always feel so heavy it takes so much willpower to get up or do anything knowing my legs are permanently like this. If I do too much I get a fever and inflammation in my legs. I had tumors in my ovaries and abdominal cavity that permanently fucked up my bladder and everything around it even after they were removed.
I have GI issues and chronic constipation, that make it difficult for me to eat. My cognitive abilities are in the toilet and have lead to 24/7 brainfog, which I can only compare to being stoned all the time, but without the warm and nice feelings, only the complete daze of not knowing what's going on around you and your memory being completely shot. The things that made me feel human are gone.
One of my spinal discs is degenerating and I often have very uncomfortable back pain that ruins my whole day, because I am not given any pain management. I have headaches that make me want to tear my hair out (if it was not already falling out) and scream. My circulation is poor and I'm extremely sensitive to temperature all the time, to sound, to light, it makes me feel like a mummified zombie more than a human.
Hands down, this is why I have to ctb. I was already born autistic, which was hard enough, but being so disabled, struggling so much, and then getting no help from the outside world because my conditions are invisible to the naked eye is my death knell. When you have conditions like this, many people will accuse you of faking it and not take it seriously no matter how much you suffer. Multiple family members of mine died from extraordinarily painful complications of autoimmune diseases, and I can only imagine this is my future as well if I don't do something about it before.
I have GI issues and chronic constipation, that make it difficult for me to eat. My cognitive abilities are in the toilet and have lead to 24/7 brainfog, which I can only compare to being stoned all the time, but without the warm and nice feelings, only the complete daze of not knowing what's going on around you and your memory being completely shot. The things that made me feel human are gone.
One of my spinal discs is degenerating and I often have very uncomfortable back pain that ruins my whole day, because I am not given any pain management. I have headaches that make me want to tear my hair out (if it was not already falling out) and scream. My circulation is poor and I'm extremely sensitive to temperature all the time, to sound, to light, it makes me feel like a mummified zombie more than a human.
Hands down, this is why I have to ctb. I was already born autistic, which was hard enough, but being so disabled, struggling so much, and then getting no help from the outside world because my conditions are invisible to the naked eye is my death knell. When you have conditions like this, many people will accuse you of faking it and not take it seriously no matter how much you suffer. Multiple family members of mine died from extraordinarily painful complications of autoimmune diseases, and I can only imagine this is my future as well if I don't do something about it before.
Jarni
Love is a toothache in the heart. H.Heine
- Dec 12, 2020
- 373
ASBA999
Member
- Dec 7, 2023
- 28
Not now (barely noticeable symptoms currently), but if the diagnosis is correct in 2 - 3 years (my guess) I'll CTB (nitrogen Rebreather or trip to Switzerland) while I still can to avoid the inevitable horror to comeā¦.
I just hope & pray God would heal or forgive me.
I just hope & pray God would heal or forgive me.
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Go on twitter hoping for some miraculous cure or treatment, wish for death, grieve my old life, cry.
Are you mostly bedbound too?
I kind of am. I am diagnosed with both autism (it would be Asperger's if the distinction was still made) and ADHD which is significantly burdensome to both myself and others around me.
I assume you were talking about a physical illness/disability however.
Me... Bedbound and can't really see a way out either.
My parents have me on Suicide Watch, due to failed attempts in the past. So I can't get SN in here to rawdog it, and I don't have access to a rope. I don't know what else to do.
