People who took SN before - please describe

[Source Energy]

Those of you who failed an attempt, or took some to experiment, please share how you felt in details. I am going this route in a few weeks and I'm perusing the site for everything SN related.
I think I came to accept the symptoms and the possible pain/discomfort, as opposed to continuing living like this. But I think for most people it goes painlessly, and I am looking for evidence of that. As per my "religion", expectation and belief play a vital role in an outcome. Do not lie to make me feel good, but please share how it went for you, including pain, heart race, vomiting and bowels movement, everything.
I want to expect it will go smoothly for me.

 

[missingpeace]

Sometimes it's better not to know, if you've got the meds that people said were necessary, that's the only info you need, when I was reading the failed attempts it was starting to put me off. There is so much variability in what people experience. My hope is that I come in the category of peaceful exit, I guess that is everybody's hope as well.

 

[Source Energy]

The failed attempts don't worry me, it was probably insufficient dose and/or not following the book. I just want to know how they felt physically, how their body felt, so I can prepare myself mentally for the best.

 

[Thefuture]

I haven't taken SN only OD'd on amitriptyline so I can't really know - but I assume it's probably similar to any reaction your body has to an OD. I think you lose consciousness pretty damn fast so there's no point worrying. And people even if they appear like they're aware they are probably not or wouldn't recall the experience if you asked them. The pain will be over quick and you'll probably have altered consciousness when you are experiencing pain. I don't think pain will be that bad, I've cut myself deeply, broken bones etc. But who knows right? I wish I could afford to buy SN I'd take it asap.

 

[Source Energy]

I wish I could afford to buy SN I'd take it asap.

It is only $25 on CCS...

 

[Thefuture]

It is only $25 on CCS...

whats ccs? I live in australia

 

[tieiwi]

I turned blue then my heart started beating fast. Then the worst nausea of my life hit. I was vomiting for 4 hours straight. I didn't eat anything beforehand so it felt like I was going to vomit up my insides. Now I can't even think about the taste of SN. If I take a whiff of anything similar to the smell I immediately am hit with nausea. I cant use SN again now, that's how bad it is for me. I couldn't pee after either I had to take an antibiotic. Might have permanent kidney damage that I will never know about.

 

[DreamEnd]

I turned blue then my heart started beating fast. Then the worst nausea of my life hit. I was vomiting for 4 hours straight. I didn't eat anything beforehand so it felt like I was going to vomit up my insides. Now I can't even think about the taste of SN. If I take a whiff of anything similar to the smell I immediately am hit with nausea. I cant use SN again now, that's how bad it is for me. I couldn't pee after either I had to take an antibiotic. Might have permanent kidney damage that I will never know about.

stories like these make me really doubt sn. did you take the recommended 25g? anti emetics?

 

[hrsprayqn]

stories like these make me really doubt sn. did you take the recommended 25g? anti emetics?

If ya vomiting for 4 hours I assume the anti-emetics weren't taken. My SN has arrived, it's taking a lot of restraint to wait til I have some metoclopramide

 

[Source Energy]

If ya vomiting for 4 hours I assume the anti-emetics weren't taken. My SN has arrived, it's taking a lot of restraint to wait til I have some metoclopramide

I too am ordering Domperidone and Propranolol now. I am in doubts, and desperate, because I really need to ctb, otherwise I'm fked

 

[tieiwi]

stories like these make me really doubt sn. did you take the recommended 25g? anti emetics?

I didn't take anything except for anti acid tablets, I took less than 25g maybe 10g, I believe SN works as long as you don't vomit

 

[Source Energy]

stories like these make me really doubt sn. did you take the recommended 25g? anti emetics?

I turned blue then my heart started beating fast. Then the worst nausea of my life hit. I was vomiting for 4 hours straight. I didn't eat anything beforehand so it felt like I was going to vomit up my insides. Now I can't even think about the taste of SN. If I take a whiff of anything similar to the smell I immediately am hit with nausea. I cant use SN again now, that's how bad it is for me. I couldn't pee after either I had to take an antibiotic. Might have permanent kidney damage that I will never know about.

like, how fast was your heart beating? like after a long run, or like it was going to explode?
What kind of anti-emetic did you use?
How long until the blue cleaned up?
Thank you for your answers, I really need to know

 

[tieiwi]

like, how fast was your heart beating? like after a long run, or like it was going to explode?
What kind of anti-emetic did you use?
How long until the blue cleaned up?
Thank you for your answers, I really need to know

Hmmm my heart was beating like after a long run. You could feel it beating very hard but it didn't hurt or freak me out too much. I didn't take anything except for anti acid tablets. I took the SN at around 10pm I believe? I woke up late around like 12pm the next day and my blueness cleared up completely. No one in my house could tell I had just attempted!

 

[Source Energy]

Hmmm my heart was beating like after a long run. You could feel it beating very hard but it didn't hurt or freak me out too much. I didn't take anything except for anti acid tablets. I took the SN at around 10pm I believe? I woke up late around like 12pm the next day and my blueness cleared up completely. No one in my house could tell I had just attempted!

wow. this sounds like something that could happen to me, with my luck. I had 2 previous ctb attempts with pills, and I was like new....
I just read your thread omg. So sorry for your pain. How is your uti now?
Maybe if you had taken the full dose - as I plan to - you would have ctb-ed

 

[mondo9k]

I'm going to Mexico on Saturday because I know I can get metoclopramide there. I already have the SN, but I think the antiemetic is absolutely needed or there's a chance you will vomit and not succeed.

 

[JB3567]

Hmmm my heart was beating like after a long run. You could feel it beating very hard but it didn't hurt or freak me out too much. I didn't take anything except for anti acid tablets. I took the SN at around 10pm I believe? I woke up late around like 12pm the next day and my blueness cleared up completely. No one in my house could tell I had just atte

I turned blue then my heart started beating fast. Then the worst nausea of my life hit. I was vomiting for 4 hours straight. I didn't eat anything beforehand so it felt like I was going to vomit up my insides. Now I can't even think about the taste of SN. If I take a whiff of anything similar to the smell I immediately am hit with nausea. I cant use SN again now, that's how bad it is for me. I couldn't pee after either I had to take an antibiotic. Might have permanent kidney damage that I will never know about.

Did u happen to drink a second glass of Sn after the vomiting, I've just heard from the protocol to take a second glass afterwords but I understand that's probably really difficult with vomiting for 4 hours straight.

 

[Source Energy]

I'm going to Mexico on Saturday because I know I can get metoclopramide there. I already have the SN, but I think the antiemetic is absolutely needed or there's a chance you will vomit and not succeed.

Bring me a souvenir, please. It's called N :)

 

[mondo9k]

Bring me a souvenir, please. It's called N :)

If I could find N believe me I would get it but I heard it's very rare to find even in the vet stores. I'm going to Mazatlan first then other places. I'll look at the veterinarias. I'm mostly expecting to find metoclopramide (in normal farmacias) to use with SN but will keep eyes out for N.

 

[Source Energy]

If I could find N believe me I would get it but I heard it's very rare to find even in the vet stores. I'm going to Mazatlan first then other places. I'll look at the veterinarias. I'm mostly expecting to find metoclopramide (in normal farmacias) to use with SN but will keep eyes out for N.

wouldn't be wonderful if you got it? I find it so hard to believe not to be found in Mexico....
also, I was gonna ask you: why don't you order Domperidone online instead of taking the trip for meto? they say it is a good substitute, that's what I'll use, what do you think?

 

[tieiwi]

wow. this sounds like something that could happen to me, with my luck. I had 2 previous ctb attempts with pills, and I was like new....
I just read your thread omg. So sorry for your pain. How is your uti now?
Maybe if you had taken the full dose - as I plan to - you would have ctb-ed

Im sorry for yours as well when an attempt fails it's a very weird feeling, I fell asleep that night thinking I wouldn't wake up. My uti went away after the antibiotic but I get random shocks of pain in my bladder and kidneys sometimes. It's nothing terrible that I can't function or it hurts. Just something that happens once in a while. But peeing now feels different I can't describe it. There's no pain and I'm peeing just as much but it doesn't feel like how it was before I attempted if that makes sense. So I wonder if there was possibly more damage to my kidneys than I thought. Yes I agree if I had taken the full dose things probably would've been different.

Did u happen to drink a second glass of Sn after the vomiting, I've just heard from the protocol to take a second glass afterwords but I understand that's probably really difficult with vomiting for 4 hours straight.

I remembered stans guide saying to take a second glass so I was going to…. But when I tell you that nausea was like an automatic response. Nothing I could do would stop it. Just picking up the water bottle I used to shake up the sn and water made me gag that's how sensitive I was to the smell. It's SO hard to take a second glass after you vomit. It's to the point that you don't have control over your body anymore it won't down the SN.

 

[Netvor]

I turned blue then my heart started beating fast. Then the worst nausea of my life hit. I was vomiting for 4 hours straight. I didn't eat anything beforehand so it felt like I was going to vomit up my insides. Now I can't even think about the taste of SN. If I take a whiff of anything similar to the smell I immediately am hit with nausea. I cant use SN again now, that's how bad it is for me. I couldn't pee after either I had to take an antibiotic. Might have permanent kidney damage that I will never know about.

Have you taken any anti-emetic / vomit prevention drugs before taking sn by 40 mins?

 

[tieiwi]

Have you taken any anti-emetic / vomit prevention drugs before taking sn by 40 mins?

No I didn't take anything except anti acid tablet beforehand

 

[ThisIsLife]

No I didn't take anything except anti acid tablet beforehand

- Anti-acid is no longer recommended because it fucks up the absorption.

- You took around 10g instead of 25g.

- You didn't take antiemetic to avoid vomiting.

It's a recipe for disaster. Those were good enough reasons for it to go wrong.

Your experience must have been awful. Are you exploring other methods right now ?

 

[tieiwi]

- Anti-acid is no longer recommended because it fucks up the absorption.

- You took around 10g instead of 25g.

- You didn't take antiemetic to avoid vomiting.

It's a recipe for disaster. Those were good enough reasons for it to go wrong.

Your experience must have been awful. Are you exploring other methods right now ?

Yes I know. I did it out of impulse so I totally get it. I'm thinking of using the exit bag method.

 

[LateForTheBus]

It is only $25 on CCS...

Would you PM me the CCS link, please? Thanks!

 

[gehlertjohansson@gm]

I turned blue then my heart started beating fast. Then the worst nausea of my life hit. I was vomiting for 4 hours straight. I didn't eat anything beforehand so it felt like I was going to vomit up my insides. Now I can't even think about the taste of SN. If I take a whiff of anything similar to the smell I immediately am hit with nausea. I cant use SN again now, that's how bad it is for me. I couldn't pee after either I had to take an antibiotic. Might have permanent kidney damage that I will never know about.

Hi I'm new so I'm sorry if I'm not allowed to ask, but where did you get a hold of it? I keep seeing all these people having gotten it in the mail, but how? And is it difficult to prepare in the correct way? I'm from Denmark and a lot of people here seems to be pretty far away so it's a bit tricky for me. Thank you, also for sharing.

 

[freelifexit]

Those of you who failed an attempt, or took some to experiment, please share how you felt in details.

Some SN cases are painful, some cases are discomforting, some cases are peaceful. Everybody reacts different.

Here you can find description of painful and peaceful cases and symptoms.

 

[Brave_it_Shiru]

Those of you who failed an attempt, or took some to experiment, please share how you felt in details. I am going this route in a few weeks and I'm perusing the site for everything SN related.
I think I came to accept the symptoms and the possible pain/discomfort, as opposed to continuing living like this. But I think for most people it goes painlessly, and I am looking for evidence of that. As per my "religion", expectation and belief play a vital role in an outcome. Do not lie to make me feel good, but please share how it went for you, including pain, heart race, vomiting and bowels movement, everything.
I want to expect it will go smoothly for me.

A failed attempt on SN causes me so much anxiety.
I've tried CTB before and I took an insane amount of petroleum because I thought it would work lol! Little did know that it was used in school to lower our libido.
....So after I took it I I put my hands in the coffin position and lay there ready. I had no heart race and no SI. I could not wait.
...But I woke up and I was so mad. It is good to have this site as a resource. Now I know I am ready to try again. I feel as sure as I was the first time.
Good luck to you.

 

[Catching_the_bus]

I recently failed an attempt... I woke up in the hospital but I remember everything up until the point I passed out and was found... It tasted incredibly salty and within minutes I turned blue... Mostly my fingers and lips.. then my heart started racing which was only mildly uncomfortable. The nausea was overwhelming but manageable with a high dose of zofran (I couldn't get ahold of any of the preferred antiemetics) I got extremely dizzy and lightheaded before ultimately passing out... Overall it wasn't painful other then a mild headache it was just mildly uncomfortable... Definitely one of the more peaceful methods if I hadn't been found too soon

 

[tieiwi]

Hi I'm new so I'm sorry if I'm not allowed to ask, but where did you get a hold of it? I keep seeing all these people having gotten it in the mail, but how? And is it difficult to prepare in the correct way? I'm from Denmark and a lot of people here seems to be pretty far away so it's a bit tricky for me. Thank you, also for sharing.

Hi I'm far away from Denmark so I know my way of getting SN won't work for you I'm sorry :( maybe posting something asking if anyone else is from Denmark can get you some answers!