busybee
Experienced
- Jul 5, 2023
- 208
Everyone around me always says the exact right thing to put me in a state of 'paralyses' where I can't even leave the bed anymore.
It is like they sense what will drain my energy the most effective way.
Why can't people pretend I don't exist so I can go and get shit done.
When I need them they ignore me but when I manage to do anything they all swarm around me and put me down ad then I cannot do anything at all anymore.
Makes me feel like I am at fault. I am clean from SH but I really want to. I should feel bad for letting everyone down but I can't feel so I should at least be in pain to feel bad in some way for what I have done.
It is like they sense what will drain my energy the most effective way.
Why can't people pretend I don't exist so I can go and get shit done.
When I need them they ignore me but when I manage to do anything they all swarm around me and put me down ad then I cannot do anything at all anymore.
Makes me feel like I am at fault. I am clean from SH but I really want to. I should feel bad for letting everyone down but I can't feel so I should at least be in pain to feel bad in some way for what I have done.