Hey there. My name is Laura, but my birth name is Marc. I'm a 21 years old trans male. I've been bullied all my life because I always wanted to be a girl. This damn world has brought me here, because I can't take it any more. I think the end is not far away, and I'm OK with it. I just hope to find some nice people here who understand me.
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Saturn_
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.
- Apr 22, 2024
- 323
You'll always be a woman to me. To many other people on this forum as well. I can't imagine how much you are suffering, it's very hard for trans people in such a polarizing modern political climate. Like all people care about is the politics of your identity over your very real humanity. It must be suffocating not to be able to just be able to live as yourself. If you ever need anyone to talk to, I'm here 
Nice to meet you, Laura
Nice to meet you, LauraThanks. I can't write personally yet, but I will as soon as I can.You'll always be a woman to me. To many other people on this forum as well. I can't imagine how much you are suffering, it's very hard for trans people in such a polarizing modern political climate. Like all people care about is the politics of your identity over your very real humanity. It must be suffocating not to be able to just be able to live as yourself. If you ever need anyone to talk to, I'm here
nightlygem
La Joya
- Sep 27, 2023
- 183
I really hope I'm not coming off as rude or insensitive; I'm deeply saddened by the reason for being on the site, nonetheless I hope you find comfort.
But, if you are male to female, the term would be trans female! Saying trans male means you're transitioning from female to male. I'm sorry if this is not my place; I'm unlabeled both sexually and gender-wise so I have a bit of knowledge on this.
But, if you are male to female, the term would be trans female! Saying trans male means you're transitioning from female to male. I'm sorry if this is not my place; I'm unlabeled both sexually and gender-wise so I have a bit of knowledge on this.
smvrtsa
memento mori
- Mar 27, 2019
- 105
we all end up here for our own reasons but there's something beautiful about the desire for death uniting us all. welcome friend, i hope you find some peace or if nothing else i hope you find a friendly ear to listen.
OCDsufferer
no longer human
- Apr 17, 2024
- 56
I'm the exact same situation except I'm non binary. I also ended up here because I know no matter what I do I'll never be accepted. Know that to me you're a woman and my heart is with you. May our souls connect though we're far away so you don't feel alone.
Thanks for your kind messages. My English is not that good so I might have just mixed that up
I'm sorry to hear you've encountered many intolerant people, Laura. I think you'll find the vast majority of people here are welcoming of any identity and are saddened by the amount of suffering that's caused by bigoted people.
jarik
Student
- Jun 12, 2024
- 160
In here homophobia is not tolerated in any kind along with many other things, this is a safe place where you will make many friends and have fun with everyone
soulsing
Nothing special
- Jun 9, 2024
- 8
Welcome Laura!
You're certainly not alone. I'm queer, although not labeled beyond that because gender is so complicated. It's not the main reason I'm here, but it's one of many. I hope that this forum can serve as a safe space for you for however long you'd like. I haven't been here for long either, but it's been a pleasant experience so far. The people here are very understanding.
You're certainly not alone. I'm queer, although not labeled beyond that because gender is so complicated. It's not the main reason I'm here, but it's one of many. I hope that this forum can serve as a safe space for you for however long you'd like. I haven't been here for long either, but it's been a pleasant experience so far. The people here are very understanding.
smvrtsa
memento mori
- Mar 27, 2019
- 105
yuqi? :o i love finding other kpop stans on here haha
theboy
Illuminated
- Jul 15, 2022
- 3,000
soulsing
Nothing special
- Jun 9, 2024
- 8
Yes!! I love (G)I-dle so much, though Yuqi's voice is especially nice to listen to
You're welcome, but I really don't want you to feel like this is the only place. It sounds like you've been exposed to some very narrowminded circles, and it's sad to hear.
So, I was told that the right word is Trans female, not male. My English is not so good, so I mixed that up, sorry. I don't want to delete this thread because that's my story
You still might have the option to edit your post, if you want.
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Worndown
Visionary
- Mar 21, 2019
- 2,585
Acceptance is really not one of humanities strengths.
Welcome!
LunarLight
i'm a loser, a failure
- Apr 3, 2024
- 635
I am a trans woman too, welcome! And it's also one of the main reasons I'm here. I feel for you!
ratvroomvrooms
Member
- Apr 10, 2024
- 5
Hi, Laura! Welcome :). I'm sorry people have been rude to you. I hope you've felt at least a little better after gaining acceptance here. Cheers to your journey here with us today and onwards, I hope you find your peace here. <3
EvisceratedJester
|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
- Oct 21, 2023
- 1,737
People are always quick to go after those who don't fit the very narrow definition of what it means to be a woman. Even if you were not trans and were born a cis-woman those same people would likely still deny you of your womanhood for some other reason, so don't let those assholes get to you. They go after you because to them you are an easy target, not because there is anything wrong with your existence. I'm sorry that you had to suffer because of those people.
Shimidori
make me sad
- Dec 22, 2023
- 39
To the surprise of lots of people outside of this forum, but the surprise of nobody that actually is in here, we are actually really welcoming to queer people. Hell, as someone that knows those feelings far too well (The dread of being in the wrong body...), I know how it feels to be in that spot in a very personal way.
That said, you have taken steps towards your journey to womanhood I wish I was able to take, so don't downplay your own inner strength.
I know how hard life can be to someone in your situation, especially if your family isn't supportive, but even if you don't like me saying it, I'll say it anyway "Hang on!" You're very young, too young! There will always be people who won't accept you and some may even try to hurt you, but there's another world out there and many people who see you as a person and will like you for who you truly are. I'm 49 yo and I consider myself agender, I'm also ace. The amount of bs I had to put up with from my dear parents and first, and only, bf in a time when there was no awareness, or sympathy, for these issues... it was a lot of bs indeed! They tried to erode my self esteem and succeeded partly. Fortunately, I was always too much of my own person and eventually found my own crowd, people who truly love me, after I left college. I can't promise there's hope, but there's a good chance there is if you keep looking for the right people.
PS - Life isn't easy for anyone and most never live to fulfil their dreams, no matter how cis they are, but most only become somewhat comfortable with it somewhere in the 40s or 50s. Don't think you being trans is the root of all your problems and perceived failures, because trust me, we all have problems and failures and they come in all sorts of flavours!
PS - Life isn't easy for anyone and most never live to fulfil their dreams, no matter how cis they are, but most only become somewhat comfortable with it somewhere in the 40s or 50s. Don't think you being trans is the root of all your problems and perceived failures, because trust me, we all have problems and failures and they come in all sorts of flavours!
The world seems to be improving and becoming more welcoming for you and people like you. It may be worth sticking around to see how it evolves in this regard...
QueerMelancholy
Arcanist
- Jul 29, 2023
- 470
It's nice to meet you, Laura! That's such a beautiful name. It's nice to have you join us so we can talk about things and share ourselves and our thoughts together.
All the best. I hope you find some comfort in the forum and somewhere in this world.
All the best. I hope you find some comfort in the forum and somewhere in this world.
Everyone is unique. Always thought it's so weird there's only two genders. I think God made a mistake with that aspect of it
(please excuse the temporary heretic in me). Don't be hard on yourself, we're all special in our own way! 
hey laura! my name is eleanor. i'm also a trans woman, 19 years old. i know how scary life is for us—i live in the U.S. in a red state; my rights are being stripped away. but i promise it will get better. yes, people hate us. yes, life as a trans person can be hard. but trust me, you shouldn't end your life. you owe it to the little girl inside of you to see yourself as a woman unequivocally, at least one time before you pass away.
im scared you don't see yourself as a woman (hence the term "trans *male*" rather than trans woman). i know how it feels almost impossible to call yourself a woman. but you are a woman. you are. and you owe it to yourself to know your womanhood :)
im scared you don't see yourself as a woman (hence the term "trans *male*" rather than trans woman). i know how it feels almost impossible to call yourself a woman. but you are a woman. you are. and you owe it to yourself to know your womanhood :)
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