Venting People don't know what it's like

[AnonymousL]

People don't know what it's like to look your loved one in the eyes knowing you're planning on killing yourself.
Knowing you will destroy them.

When they hear the news they will most likely fall on the floor and break down in tears.

People don't know what it's like having to put on a mask and pretend you're fine cause otherwise your loved ones are gonna blame themselves for your mental health.

People don't know what a struggle it is to wake up everyday wishing you didn't.
They don't know what it's like to not have a peaceful way out.

They don't know what it's like to risk living with permanent damage just because you want to stop existing.

When they haven't felt like this before , they won't understand. No matter what you say or do.

A week before my best friend killed himself he said to me; I finally understand how you feel.

 

[Meteora]

No, they don't. The majority of them have no clue of such feelings. And they also don't want to know. But there is reincarnation and everyone will have to go through that, I guess.

A week before my best friend killed himself he said to me; I finally understand how you feel.

 

[Lifeaffirmingchoice]

They don't. The only relief from this painful lack of understanding and caring and seeing is to leave this world forever and is a huge reason I want to ctb.

 

[willitpass]

It is a hell I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. I'm happy for anyone who is lucky enough not to know.