Archness
Defective Personel
- Jan 20, 2023
- 490
People don't give a shit unless they "need to", they basically do nothing to help until they worry it'd make them a "bad person".
Who else is familiar with that certain tone of voice. Where they're acting nice and "being a good person", but you can tell, they're just covering their ass. Mother scolds with real emotion, she means it when she speaks about how much I suck, but then she feels like caring is "necessary", then she gives that deliberate voice of "oh, I care", and holds back almost everything for a facade of "motherhood". At least she isn't a literal demon, she can care and love genuinely, but just not for me.
Honestly, such mirages are supposed to be "enough". I should be content in this nice society, these nice people, the nice environment I was in, but alike a nice guy, it's only skin-deep and shallow. While it's alright for a girl to reject a nice guy, I'm the one in the wrong for being incontent with this nice society. I should just "Be Thankful".
Thankfulness... A wholesome concept sadly used for gaslighting when your not literally starving to death. It's not exactly about being greatfull for all you have, but in appreciating having what really matters. I can say I don't have much to be thankful for, because there's so little in my life that really matters, apart from the bare minimum of being not-dead.
Honestly it's weird how people say my life's good because it isn't bad. Or because of all this stuff that I won't mind if it never existed.
Ahh.... It the kind of thing mother and etc. would gaslight me into thinking I'n the only one who feels this way, and how I'm wrong, but that's such a blatent lie.
Who else is familiar with that certain tone of voice. Where they're acting nice and "being a good person", but you can tell, they're just covering their ass. Mother scolds with real emotion, she means it when she speaks about how much I suck, but then she feels like caring is "necessary", then she gives that deliberate voice of "oh, I care", and holds back almost everything for a facade of "motherhood". At least she isn't a literal demon, she can care and love genuinely, but just not for me.
Honestly, such mirages are supposed to be "enough". I should be content in this nice society, these nice people, the nice environment I was in, but alike a nice guy, it's only skin-deep and shallow. While it's alright for a girl to reject a nice guy, I'm the one in the wrong for being incontent with this nice society. I should just "Be Thankful".
Thankfulness... A wholesome concept sadly used for gaslighting when your not literally starving to death. It's not exactly about being greatfull for all you have, but in appreciating having what really matters. I can say I don't have much to be thankful for, because there's so little in my life that really matters, apart from the bare minimum of being not-dead.
Honestly it's weird how people say my life's good because it isn't bad. Or because of all this stuff that I won't mind if it never existed.
Ahh.... It the kind of thing mother and etc. would gaslight me into thinking I'n the only one who feels this way, and how I'm wrong, but that's such a blatent lie.