Venting People are liars when they say they are there for you

[Falseunderworld]

this past year has been absolute hell, my exes said that im a bad people pleaser and that everys single affection they gave me was empty, they said that the things im doing now with my life are menial work, that im chronically online and spread lies about me , they said i was two faced but that wasnt the truth . I let my heart heal- i let myself become apart of their world and opened up to them only for them to throw it all away and lie to me, saying how horrible i am, i am hurt, it is not the first time ive been lied to with empty promises and told how horrible i am, if im so fucking horrible i guess it should be about time i CTB , ive been self harming all week- ive lost interest in everything - i knew id never make it to 30. If im such a rotten terrible irredeemable pos i shouldnt exist anymore... whats worse? they came to me trying to malnipulate my heart and feelings with pity, - they act like their guilt and pity will fix it, it wont fix it

 

[citrix_s]

People are very fake and only think about themselves, and they don't care about others, they are selfish, that's why I hate this society so much.

 

[TAW122]

Yeah that is about 99% of society and people (outside of family - though yes some families don't care about their own kin either), and my experiences as well. I've had people whom I thought was close or at least more than just an acquaintance, maybe not like good friend or anything, but then as soon as things separate like commonalities or so, they just vanish into the ether, like nothing happened.

One of the most infuriating things is that if the same people in my IRL learn of CTB, attempted CTB, or even CTB ideation, they would suddenly feign concern and empathy, some even going to great lengths to 'meddle and impinge on it (regardless of the repercussions)' even though they mostly just vanished otherwise. It's basically insincere and superficial, but I digress.

 

[overmorrow]

at the end of the day, the only one left is you, nobody else, it's you and yourself

 

[58Alice85]

There is no point living in this world. Like a junkie needing to increase his dosage, the normies will just come up with new forms of meaningless torment, unpleasantness, more outrageous lies, increasing the fakeness of the behavior and so on