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chris.watt

Member
Jun 24, 2025
18
Going to Lima, Peru in the next 2-3 weeks, will try to get Pentobarbital / Nembutal / Halatal.

Any advise?
 
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Romanticize

Specialist
Aug 22, 2024
338
nowadays its hard to get even in peru, bolivia and all south america
Look for "vet pharmacies" called pharmacia veterinaria if i recall correctly and on outskirts of the city/town. The shadier, the better. Of course you need also to bribe the pharmacist. And even with it, your chances arent great.
 
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chris.watt

Member
Jun 24, 2025
18
nowadays its hard to get even in peru, bolivia and all south america
Look for "vet pharmacies" called pharmacia veterinaria if i recall correctly and on outskirts of the city/town. The shadier, the better. Of course you need also to bribe the pharmacist. And even with it, your chances arent great.
Thank you.
I'll be updating on this thread.

It is really hard as you have to overcome several obstacles, and all of them internal and psychological as you battling yourself all along the way:

1. Get to the country and city you have never been to.
2. Language barrier - i dont speak spanish but these days with chatbots shouldn;t be a problem.
3. Finding a place to buy.
4. Actually buying it.
5. And then of course, the last step - doing it. You can't prolong this step as you can't take this staff with you out of the country.

Is it normal to get back and forth on the decision?
It feels like somewhat going to war - at some point there will be no going back - in the hotel room once the glass with N is in your hand and it is going toward your mouth - you have to stop thinking, numb feelings (whats left) and just do it. Like in a war - just pull the trigger, shot and kill.

It is nice to talk to someone about this. Thank you whoever replies.
 
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gottacheckout

COB
May 20, 2025
721
It is very normal to go back and forth on ctb. It's that damn si.
 
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chris.watt

Member
Jun 24, 2025
18
It is very normal to go back and forth on ctb. It's that damn si.
the way i'm managing it is not forcing it. do what i need to do in terms of planning (where energy, rational mind is needed), but when the time comes for execution - this is when i'll let all the emotions out and will ride the wave.
 
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MourningFlower

MourningFlower

existed.
Jan 8, 2025
77
SI and the unpredictable ebb and flow of life is what keeps me here. Good luck on whatever you decide.
 
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spero_meliora

Trial Mod | In hope for better things.
Jan 13, 2025
346
Going to Lima, Peru in the next 2-3 weeks, will try to get Pentobarbital / Nembutal / Halatal.

Any advise?
good luck, you'll need it, especially if you don't speak Spanish. halatal got too much heat and attention, and most vet pharmacies are going to know why you want it and that it isn't really for your very sick horse you insist you have.
 
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lysergamide

SO YOU WANNA BE A TRAILBLAZER
Oct 2, 2024
92
Because it's not that easy to find, i've heard of people going there to look for N, pheno, pento what have you, but no one actually getting their hands on it in peru. And it's supposed to be the place where it's easiest to get your hands on.
 
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StupidCat

StupidCat

retard
Apr 24, 2025
324
Because you'll make it harder for locals to get it. Lima is the place where is the most regulated, so less chances to get it. Also if you are some gringo asking for it you'll definitely not get it, possibly even get reported since it's already well-known for gringos to come here buy N and die in some random hotel.
Some places where isn't that regulated are Huancayo, Huaraz, Chiclayo. Since people don't buy that to die just ask for it normally, if they ask for a reason, tell them you need to put some animals down and that you'll pay more than necessary. It's mostly sold to businesses, so you could theoretically get a tax id for a business if you get a 'carnet de extranjerĂ­a' and apply for a RUC number with the SUNAT. You would need to apply for said carnet first but it's not really that difficult. With a RUC you could even buy it online. If you ever bother to do that and get your hands on some just take it home please.
 
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chris.watt

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Jun 24, 2025
18
Because you'll make it harder for locals to get it. Lima is the place where is the most regulated, so less chances to get it. Also if you are some gringo asking for it you'll definitely not get it, possibly even get reported since it's already well-known for gringos to come here buy N and die in some random hotel.
Some places where isn't that regulated are Huancayo, Huaraz, Chiclayo. Since people don't buy that to die just ask for it normally, if they ask for a reason, tell them you need to put some animals down and that you'll pay more than necessary. It's mostly sold to businesses, so you could theoretically get a tax id for a business if you get a 'carnet de extranjerĂ­a' and apply for a RUC number with the SUNAT. You would need to apply for said carnet first but it's not really that difficult. With a RUC you could even buy it online. If you ever bother to do that and get your hands on some just take it home please.
thank you.
 
quietwoods

quietwoods

Easypeazylemonsqueezy
May 21, 2025
507
Dude, any success?
I pm'd them weeks ago inquiring about how their trip went, as I was contemplating a trip.

Either they found success and have taken it or have left the site
 
bankai

bankai

Visionary
Mar 16, 2025
2,340
I pm'd them weeks ago inquiring about how their trip went, as I was contemplating a trip.

Either they found success and have taken it or have left the site
Yeah, I know. I was messaging them as well. But it's complete radio silence for the past several weeks. Interesting. I don't know what to take that as. Did they actually get it and complete a peaceful CTB?

that's fine but i wish they would have provided some information about it.
 
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toomuchtoohandle

New Member
Aug 14, 2025
4
Thank you.
I'll be updating on this thread.

It is really hard as you have to overcome several obstacles, and all of them internal and psychological as you battling yourself all along the way:

1. Get to the country and city you have never been to.
2. Language barrier - i dont speak spanish but these days with chatbots shouldn;t be a problem.
3. Finding a place to buy.
4. Actually buying it.
5. And then of course, the last step - doing it. You can't prolong this step as you can't take this staff with you out of the country.

Is it normal to get back and forth on the decision?
It feels like somewhat going to war - at some point there will be no going back - in the hotel room once the glass with N is in your hand and it is going toward your mouth - you have to stop thinking, numb feelings (whats left) and just do it. Like in a war - just pull the trigger, shot and kill.

It is nice to talk to someone about this. Thank you whoever replies.
#5 is not true at all. If I can smuggle weed to Italy you can get some pills out of SA.
 
quietwoods

quietwoods

Easypeazylemonsqueezy
May 21, 2025
507
#5 is not true at all. If I can smuggle weed to Italy you can get some pills out of SA.
Not pills, it's bottles of veterinary liquid. Trying to transport these bottles (you need a minimum of 3, preferably 4), is very risky. Airport x-ray security will recognize the shape of these bottles, the liquid contents, and the foil seals, and the chances of you being discovered are very high. Don't want to be caught smuggling these bottles out of a SA country.

It is possible to transfer it to another less suspicious bottle, but there's risks to that as well (contamination, degradation, accidental loss of contents, etc.).
 

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