Partial suspension or overdose?

[anorexic-pigeon]

I have been suicidal since the age of 8 and just need to exit this earth. The problem is that I can't find a method that is comfortable, which is important because I can't handle pain very well and that got in the way of my previous attempt of slitting my femoral artery, which would have knocked me out instantly due to the drop of blood pressure anyway, and would have had me bleed out in a matter of minutes. My problem now is whether to follow through on partial suspension hanging or overdose. I've already set up and practiced partial suspension, and it would be perfect except for the fact that my rope is too thin. I'd have to buy a new rope and my parents can see all of my credit card transactions. I could steal my boyfriend's xanax and overdose with alcohol, but the chances of survival are too high. What should I do?

 

[BPD Barbie]

Overdosing is unreliable and in most instances, painful.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

^
This. Do not recommend.

If I may ask, why are your parents able to see all of your credit card transactions?

 

[anorexic-pigeon]

^
This. Do not recommend.

If I may ask, why are your parents able to see all of your credit card transactions?

My account is linkes to theirs. I tried using a belt too but that untied rather quickly. For partial suspension to work, I need a thicker rope

 

[selfhater]

overdosing is just adding more pain

 

[Suez]

Have you heard of "night-night" Its a method i just heard about which is essentially a sleeping hold, but when the hold is not released you suffer from lack of oxygen and finally death It appears to be a very easy and peacefull method from reading about it. If you go to "Wiki" on this site and look at the section "Methods" you will find information about it there. Not that I want to encourage you to commit suicide, I would much rather you talk to someone.

 

[anorexic-pigeon]

Have you heard of "night-night" Its a method i just heard about which is essentially a sleeping hold, but when the hold is not released you suffer from lack of oxygen and finally death It appears to be a very easy and peacefull method from reading about it. If you go to "Wiki" on this site and look at the section "Methods" you will find information about it there. Not that I want to encourage you to commit suicide, I would much rather you talk to someone.

I just looked it up and I'll definitely add that too the list. Seems a lot more specific than partial suspension, but it's worth a try. Just have to find the right position over the arteries.