StaticCryBabye
Sorrowful Pixel
- Apr 9, 2023
- 211
Today at 4:30 AM, I impulsively attempted a partial hanging. I'm writing this down just to quickly document what happened what I felt, what I experienced.
I have the usual setup though my rope wasn't the best even then I think I might've done it correctly, because as soon as I started putting weight on my neck, all the symptoms I expected began to hit me my hand went numb, and soon, my face began to lose feeling too. Before I even realized what was happening, I slipped into unconsciousness. If I remember correctly, it took less than 12 seconds. Honestly, I didn't even think I'd pass out that fast.
After about two or three minutes, I entered this dream-like state. It felt like I was struggling—like I was running from something and i did clearly remember most of my memory just rushing and quickly playing out. I was slowly, and terrifyingly, coming back to consciousness, like sort of waking up from a nightmare. And when I finally woke up, I just found myself sitting there stunned. I actually lost consciousness. I was genuinely dying.
For a moment, I thought about it. It felt... Sort of peaceful. And strangely enough, when I woke up, I didn't feel scared or shaken at all. Instead, I had this unsettling sense of certainty that if I set things up properly, this method might actually work well for me. I didn't experience any severe or lasting aftermath or at least none that I'm currently aware of. There's a terrible bruise wrapped around my neck, but that's about it.
I think the reason I woke up was because the rope wasn't tight enough. And maybe my body was just thrashing hard enough to pull me out of it. I'm planning to reattempt it tonight hopefully doing everything right this time.
I have the usual setup though my rope wasn't the best even then I think I might've done it correctly, because as soon as I started putting weight on my neck, all the symptoms I expected began to hit me my hand went numb, and soon, my face began to lose feeling too. Before I even realized what was happening, I slipped into unconsciousness. If I remember correctly, it took less than 12 seconds. Honestly, I didn't even think I'd pass out that fast.
After about two or three minutes, I entered this dream-like state. It felt like I was struggling—like I was running from something and i did clearly remember most of my memory just rushing and quickly playing out. I was slowly, and terrifyingly, coming back to consciousness, like sort of waking up from a nightmare. And when I finally woke up, I just found myself sitting there stunned. I actually lost consciousness. I was genuinely dying.
For a moment, I thought about it. It felt... Sort of peaceful. And strangely enough, when I woke up, I didn't feel scared or shaken at all. Instead, I had this unsettling sense of certainty that if I set things up properly, this method might actually work well for me. I didn't experience any severe or lasting aftermath or at least none that I'm currently aware of. There's a terrible bruise wrapped around my neck, but that's about it.
I think the reason I woke up was because the rope wasn't tight enough. And maybe my body was just thrashing hard enough to pull me out of it. I'm planning to reattempt it tonight hopefully doing everything right this time.
