Partial hanging

[GreenTree]

When I practice my arms and legs go tingly. I need to stay in that position until I black out. Is this what usually happens in partial hanging. The next stage is to fight the urge too push my arms off the floor. I guess that's survival instinct. I was convinced I was going to ctb in my parents house but now I just can't. I'm going to try the woods and hope no one catches me. Would need an hour of no one seeing me. Fear of someone finding me attempting is awful. I want to die. Shouldn't have to go to such measures.

 

[UnlimitedPain]

The Fear of being found mid attempt is something that always sits in the back of my mind.
It does suck how the preparation and work is so long, also peaceful options should be allowed and right to die IMO. Sorry for venting in your thread and may you find your peace

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, it certainly is absolutely horrifying how people have to resort to such awful methods to be able to be free from this cruel existence. Those who wish to restrict peaceful methods and want to force others to live against their wishes really are insane, I also have the fear of failing ctb and I hate the fact how finally leaving this world behind can be so unnecessarily difficult. But I hope that you find the freedom that you are looking for, of course it does make the hanging method sound so much easier than it actually is when you hear about all those people succeeding with it.

 

[jodes2]

When I practice my arms and legs go tingly. I need to stay in that position until I black out. Is this what usually happens in partial hanging. The next stage is to fight the urge too push my arms off the floor. I guess that's survival instinct. I was convinced I was going to ctb in my parents house but now I just can't. I'm going to try the woods and hope no one catches me. Would need an hour of no one seeing me. Fear of someone finding me attempting is awful. I want to die. Shouldn't have to go to such measures.

I had trouble with partial too. Always ended with SI and panic when I couldn't breathe. I wish you good luck in the woods, I'm sorry for your fear of being found we should not have such a struggle to end things

 

[Altvtysp]

I had trouble with partial too. Always ended with SI and panic when I couldn't breathe. I wish you good luck in the woods, I'm sorry for your fear of being found we should not have such a struggle to end things

I'm struggling with this right now. I tied several ligatures to a very secure spot that's above my head. I tried several times to CTB but now I'm just left with a neck that's in a ton of pain. I'm trying to talk myself into doing it again but I feel defeated and my neck really hurts a lot. I'm such a pussy and deserve the shitty life that's been inflicted on me. If I don't succeed my family will see what I tried to do again because I have dark marks on my neck. They'll force me to go to some shithole mental hospital that will only make me even more suicidal. I'm so fucked :(

 

[jodes2]

I'm struggling with this right now. I tied several ligatures to a very secure spot that's above my head. I tried several times to CTB but now I'm just left with a neck that's in a ton of pain. I'm trying to talk myself into doing it again but I feel defeated and my neck really hurts a lot. I'm such a pussy and deserve the shitty life that's been inflicted on me. If I don't succeed my family will see what I tried to do again because I have dark marks on my neck. They'll force me to go to some shithole mental hospital that will only make me even more suicidal. I'm so fucked :(

You're not a pssy, it's hard! I'd try with less pressure on the neck, it's about finding the right spot. Technically it shouldn't be painful, easier said than done though

 

[Altvtysp]

You're not a pssy, it's hard! I'd try with less pressure on the neck, it's about finding the right spot. Technically it shouldn't be painful, easier said than done though

I didn't even put that much pressure on it but I was afraid of not putting enough so I might have went a little overboard. The noose doesn't get tight very well but I imagine the weight is supposed to do the job. I'm trying to talk myself into trying again hyt my throat hurts really bad. I can't continue to live so I'll try doing it a bit different and then I guess take the ligatures down in defeat. I'm so fucked. I should maybe reconsider going to a high ledge and jumping. I don't really have any near me but there is a famous spot a few hours away. It's only painful now but during it I was having a throbbing head and when I started to black out my subconscious mind kicked in. I really should make sure I can't cancel it and it would be done. I'm such a pussy.

 

[jodes2]

I didn't even put that much pressure on it but I was afraid of not putting enough so I might have went a little overboard. The noose doesn't get tight very well but I imagine the weight is supposed to do the job. I'm trying to talk myself into trying again hyt my throat hurts really bad. I can't continue to live so I'll try doing it a bit different and then I guess take the ligatures down in defeat. I'm so fucked. I should maybe reconsider going to a high ledge and jumping. I don't really have any near me but there is a famous spot a few hours away. It's only painful now but during it I was having a throbbing head and when I started to black out my subconscious mind kicked in. I really should make sure I can't cancel it and it would be done. I'm such a pussy.

Don't force it, you deserve a peaceful passing. You're not a pussy at all, it's hard. Some people just have a stronger SI and need to be more selective about how they go. I found jumping very hard because even off a tall cliff I panic about landing on my legs and being in agony at the bottom so I chicken out every time. I've been to beachy head like 5 times now and the closest I get is gingerly peering over the cliff edge to imagine how I'd land

 

[Altvtysp]

That's what I'm afraid of with trying to jump. There are some decent spots near me that goes along a steep decline but I wouldn't be able to know exactly how far the drop is. I was hoping the partial hanging would knock me out at least within a minute and the rest would be easy but I was trying to choke myself for several minutes. I rubbed large ligature marks into my neck which are now hurting a lot. I think what should be expressed about trying to trigger the cartoid arteries is that it's very difficult to do (at least for some). I'll need to regroup but I imagine I'll probably be forced to go to a mental hospital and have to pretend that I'm not suicidal at all. I'm so disappointed in myself.