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Nov 17, 2025
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I tried to ctb on multiple occasions by partial hanging and i keep failing every single time.
So, first thing is my rope will not stay in it's place, i can't keep it right under my chin and it keep falling down in the middle of my neck. How can i keep it still under my chin?
Second thing: i used the arbor knot or the slip knot, i don't know if i tied wrong but nothing of this two knots works for me
Third thing: it seems i can't pass out, last night i stayed with the rope around my neck for about 3-4 mins, maybe even 5 and i didnt fade, not even close to fade. I just made noises because i couldnt and at the same time could breathe, so from my mouth strange noises came out. ( I don't know how to explained better now, let me know if something isn't clear, i will try to explain better)
Fourth thing: my rope is very long, so i don't know if i should cut it or not.
Please tell me everything you know based on your experience or someone else's, i need to ctb, i can't go on with my life. Thanks
 

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