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hurb

hurb

I care too much to give a f*ck
Jan 22, 2026
308
I tried literally every fucking position.
No matter what my stupid chungus nose still manages to squeeze a breath or two.
The only way to have any sort of progress is to put weight on the wind pipe. Which is fucking stupid because its just painful and makes u gag like u r in some sort of orgy.
This shit shouldnt be this boring man , how much am i meant to wait. My adhd makes me bored instantly.
At least , now i feel like im being hugged on my neck which is kinda cool since i don't remember the last time i was hugged.
Fuck this going back to sleep
 
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RedFruit

RedFruit

Red Fruit.
Feb 17, 2026
18
Ugh I wanted to CTB this way but haven't tried at all.
Enjoy your sleep 🖤
 
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hurb

I care too much to give a f*ck
Jan 22, 2026
308
I still think there is one thing I didnt try yet , maybe another time.
And its to start by holding my breath and then Commit. Maybe that would make it much faster. Idk
 
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Matchaaa

Matchaaa

Please excuse any tone misunderstandings,thank you
Dec 10, 2025
98
Sleep well.❤️
Sometimes I find the Partial Hanging method difficult, so I haven't looked into it yet.
 
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Sunset Limited

Sunset Limited

I believe in Sunset Limited
Jul 29, 2019
1,387
I thought it would be so easy when I tried it exactly 8 years ago. Everything was ready. My CTB note was on the bed. It was a cold winter day, I heated the house a lot. Alone in a completely silent room. I was very scared, but I had to do it. I put the rope around my neck and let myself be carried by gravity. I imagined I would just compress my carotid arteries and lose consciousness in a few seconds. I waited like that for 2-3 minutes. I didn't even come close to losing consciousness :)

I think body fat percentage also plays a role. It might work better for thinner people. I can feel you. It's a bad feeling to fail when you believe there won't be a tomorrow.
 
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hurb

I care too much to give a f*ck
Jan 22, 2026
308
I thought it would be so easy when I tried it exactly 8 years ago. Everything was ready. My CTB note was on the bed. It was a cold winter day, I heated the house a lot. Alone in a completely silent room. I was very scared, but I had to do it. I put the rope around my neck and let myself be carried by gravity. I imagined I would just compress my carotid arteries and lose consciousness in a few seconds. I waited like that for 2-3 minutes. I didn't even come close to losing consciousness :)

I think body fat percentage also plays a role. It might work better for thinner people. I can feel you. It's a bad feeling to fail when you believe there won't be a tomorrow.
Thank you for sharing this , it made me feel a bit warmer inside
 
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