Venting Parents took my charcoal >:(

[YourLocalSadGirly]

I was planning on attempting last night but they searched my car without asking and now I'm stuck here for the foreseeable future I guess. They also took my razors I was gonna use to cut with which is just salt in the wound. I just wanted to release some stress in the hours before dying but can't even do that anymore. Fuck my life. I've "tried" jumping off a bridge in the past but it always made me sick to my stomach and I could never commit. Not to mention that the selection of bridges in my area is truly abysmal. It seems that it's becoming my only option though unfortunately. It's fucking embarrassing having my shit taken from me (that I payed good money for btw!) like I'm 14. I'm a grown ass woman and my parents still treat me like a teenager. It's honestly degrading. I appreciate that they love me and want me to be alive, I know that's not something a lot of people can say, but I wish they could recognize my suffering and let me leave in peace.