I lost my daughter to suicide almost 3 yrs ago.
We were close. What we go through can never be put into words, there aren't any that can describe it.
Loosing a child, at any age, is the worst loss any parent has to cope with, if they can. Loosing a child to suicide is even worse.
We don't get over it, pick up the pieces or move on. There isn't an initial "shock" as some think, then it gets better. It doesn't get better, it gets different but definitely not better. It with us everyday and night. We all go through various stages of shock, disbelief, numbness, anger, exhaustion, for some eventually acceptance, but not all. For many of us life is just an existence. We live somewhere between here and there, where we want to be. There are several parents on here who've lost a child. I still want to sit and scream. The pain is so deep it never goes away.
I've spoken to many many parents of suicide children and the stories are harrowing. Including parents who've lost 2 children to suicide because the second one couldn't cope with the loss of a sibling like that, specially where they thought they were close to their brother or sister. Guilt eats everyone out.
For most of us, the loss becomes worse as time goes on. The whole world moves on, while we remain stuck in a time warp, we still live that horrendous day when we died too... so vividly, it was yesterday.
I don't know about parents who hy other means, but with suici