Parents don't care no one does

[Sunoo]

I was sick today and in the car they kept saying how they do so much for me and how they work so hard and how their friend's daughters are better than me. And then they both told me if I wanted to kill myself I should do it now and they started mocking me and saying how sad I was and they continued telling me to go ahead and ctb. And then my mum started shouting about how tired she is as well and asking me how other people aren't sad like me. Hearing this just makes me want to ctb sooner. And hearing them tell me directly to ctb makes me so sad like I feel like my insides are smashed idk I just idk it's sad I know they said all that because they are stressed but it was not the first time so Idk. I just want someone to hold me and tell me it's ok idk D:

 

[Kempel556]

Thats really cruel for a parent to say, when my parents compare me to other relatives it just makes me sad but they dont realize how bad that makes me feel. Even if they are stressed out thats something they should never say.
I hope that things get better for you :)

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Obviously your parents are obsessed by the devil and on the wrong way with their beliefs! This is so awful when parents don't listen to the desires of their children when they're seeking for help. I'm sorry I can't do much more but sending a big virtual *HUG* rn.

 

[WAITING TO DIE]

I was sick today and in the car they kept saying how they do so much for me and how they work so hard and how their friend's daughters are better than me. And then they both told me if I wanted to kill myself I should do it now and they started mocking me and saying how sad I was and they continued telling me to go ahead and ctb. And then my mum started shouting about how tired she is as well and asking me how other people aren't sad like me. Hearing this just makes me want to ctb sooner. And hearing them tell me directly to ctb makes me so sad like I feel like my insides are smashed idk I just idk it's sad I know they said all that because they are stressed but it was not the first time so Idk. I just want someone to hold me and tell me it's ok idk D:

The vast majority of people in this shitshow world are stupid and selfish. Family are often the worst offenders here, my own so-called family are evil and don't give a fuck about me. They always belittle me and invalidate my suffering, and always make things about them and their problems instead of giving empathy to me instead. So sorry you have such awful parents, I know how it feels.

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be so awful being around people like that, I find it especially cruel when people force life into this world just to treat the person so badly, it's just dreadful how people have to suffer so much in this existence.

 

[Minsu]

I feel so sorry for you my family doesn't even give a shit how I feel or what I'm doing.. they don't care at all. Fuck them

 

[Sunoo]

I feel so sorry for you my family doesn't even give a shit how I feel or what I'm doing.. they don't care at all. Fuck them

fr Ik this sounds bad but I hope they finally realise how hard it was for me once I successfully ctb

 

[somenone]

Fuck these parents. No offense, but this is my opinion, they acted too disgustingly. If they act like this now, then they were not better before, so it is not surprising that you want to die, disappointed in life and tired. I don't know what situation you're in right now, but in almost any case, go straight to avoiding them, and something tells me you'll get better. In any case, we are with you virtually.
Either way, your parents are wrong. It's just a pity that the words of loved ones hurt deeply, even if they are wrong.

 

[Sunoo]

Fuck these parents. No offense, but this is my opinion, they acted too disgustingly. If they act like this now, then they were not better before, so it is not surprising that you want to die, disappointed in life and tired. I don't know what situation you're in right now, but in almost any case, go straight to avoiding them, and something tells me you'll get better. In any case, we are with you virtually.
Either way, your parents are wrong. It's just a pity that the words of loved ones hurt deeply, even if they are wrong.

Thank you so much! yeah I wish I can avoid them and leave them for good but they are pretty controlling due to my culture like you always have to follow your parents no matter how old you are. Yh it sucks
Plus it hurts a lot since I don't really hate them. I despise them but I wouldn't want to lose them ygm idk i feel trapped nothing makes sense

 

[Minsu]

fr Ik this sounds bad but I hope they finally realise how hard it was for me once I successfully ctb

I suspect that my parents wouldn't even realize what I was going through even if I ctb'ed.. they're both selfish af and brainwashed

 

[Sunoo]

I suspect that my parents wouldn't even realize what I was going through even if I ctb'ed.. they're both selfish af and brainwashed

omg I'm so sorry I wish I could help. Not all parents deserve kids, why have a child if you can't take care of them? They act like the things they do for us is a privilege like no? For example buying me clothes is a necessity not a privilege?? We can get through this I hope

 

[Minsu]

omg I'm so sorry I wish I could help. Not all parents deserve kids, why have a child if you can't take care of them? They act like the things they do for us is a privilege like no? For example buying me clothes is a necessity not a privilege?? We can get through this I hope

I absolutely agree.. our parents just shouldn't have had kids since they can't give us enough love, attention and also money.

Maybe my mom would cry if I ctbed, but I think she would do so for selfish reasons.. like, what will her friends and neighbors tell her if they know that her daughter ctb'ed etc. :/ I don't trust them at all at this point.
Even if they told me that they love me (this won't happen), I wouldn't trust them that they mean it honestly.
My dad knows for 5 years that I'm struggling with anxiety. He haven't asked me how I'm managing it, not a single one time during those 5 years. I hate him for it
Sry I'm just venting

 

[Sunoo]

I absolutely agree.. our parents just shouldn't have had kids since they can't give us enough love, attention and also money.

Maybe my mom would cry if I ctbed, but I think she would do so for selfish reasons.. like, what will her friends and neighbors tell her if they know that her daughter ctb'ed etc. :/ I don't trust them at all at this point.
Even if they told me that they love me (this won't happen), I wouldn't trust them that they mean it honestly.
My dad knows for 5 years that I'm struggling with anxiety. He haven't asked me how I'm managing it, not a single one time during those 5 years. I hate him for it
Sry I'm just venting

You can vent as much as u want because I relate a lot. Like if I did do ctb I feel like people that know my parents would judge them and idk my culture is just full of shit people. If ur depressed or suicidal or struggle with mental health ur automatically seen as someone who's controlled by the devil like whenever I tell them about my problems or sh they will say that the devil is telling me to do it and if just pray and read I will get better? Don't get me wrong the religion I grew up with is not bad but I think it's mainly my family idk. I agree with not trusting anyone in my family, my own siblings want me gone and avoid me everywhere
Sending lots of virtual hugs

 

[Minsu]

Omg that's pretty awful! I feel soo sorry, just ignore shits like that.. we're depressed because our chemicals in our brain are imbalanced, that's it.. This is one of the reasons why I don't like religions.. they just judge people through religion because they want to control people completely :/
What culture did you grow up in? This forum is watched by authorities so I understand if you don't want to answer.
My country (Korea) has 50 million population so I feel pretty safe to mention it..
Sending hugs back to you

 

[Sunoo]

Omg that's pretty awful! I feel soo sorry, just ignore shits like that.. we're depressed because our chemicals in our brain are imbalanced, that's it.. This is one of the reasons why I don't like religions.. they just judge people through religion because they want to control people completely :/
What culture did you grow up in? This forum is watched by authorities so I understand if you don't want to answer.
My country (Korea) has 50 million population so I feel pretty safe to mention it..
Sending hugs back to you

Awh thank you so much. I was born and raised in the US but my background is primarily arab and also Indonesian so my parents r both born Muslim so I would say my culture is like asian muslim idk lol tbh I think t's just my family that really forces it onto me and makes everything about it. But it's nice to meet you too!! Sending back virtual hugss

Also wdym by authorities watching? sorry I'm kinda still new, is it like people are watching this site and they will track try to u?

 

[MBG]

I was sick today and in the car they kept saying how they do so much for me and how they work so hard and how their friend's daughters are better than me. And then they both told me if I wanted to kill myself I should do it now and they started mocking me and saying how sad I was and they continued telling me to go ahead and ctb. And then my mum started shouting about how tired she is as well and asking me how other people aren't sad like me. Hearing this just makes me want to ctb sooner. And hearing them tell me directly to ctb makes me so sad like I feel like my insides are smashed idk I just idk it's sad I know they said all that because they are stressed but it was not the first time so Idk. I just want someone to hold me and tell me it's ok idk D:

Focus on your religious faith. If you don't have one, I suggest biblical Christianity. Focus on doing your filial duties as a child. Focus on your studies and future career. Get a job and focus on being good employee while looking for advancement. Save your money.

Get a romantic partner to be each other's emotional support.

Focusing on all these things will give you very little time to be annoyed by your parents and their dysfunction. It will get you free from them ASAP.

 

[brokeandbroken]

I was sick today and in the car they kept saying how they do so much for me and how they work so hard and how their friend's daughters are better than me. And then they both told me if I wanted to kill myself I should do it now and they started mocking me and saying how sad I was and they continued telling me to go ahead and ctb. And then my mum started shouting about how tired she is as well and asking me how other people aren't sad like me. Hearing this just makes me want to ctb sooner. And hearing them tell me directly to ctb makes me so sad like I feel like my insides are smashed idk I just idk it's sad I know they said all that because they are stressed but it was not the first time so Idk. I just want someone to hold me and tell me it's ok idk D:

I'm sorry to hear about that. I hope you are feeling better or will be soon. I know how it is to have parents that don't care, don't support you, and try to tear you down. My parents have never communicated it to me.... But... I do get the impression my parents would be happy if I did CTB as long as they didn't know about it first. Also I cannot hold you. But it's okay!

 

[HerLastWords]

I was sick today and in the car they kept saying how they do so much for me and how they work so hard and how their friend's daughters are better than me. And then they both told me if I wanted to kill myself I should do it now and they started mocking me and saying how sad I was and they continued telling me to go ahead and ctb. And then my mum started shouting about how tired she is as well and asking me how other people aren't sad like me. Hearing this just makes me want to ctb sooner. And hearing them tell me directly to ctb makes me so sad like I feel like my insides are smashed idk I just idk it's sad I know they said all that because they are stressed but it was not the first time so Idk. I just want someone to hold me and tell me it's ok idk D:

I am so sorry that you had to hear this from them. They don't know what they're talking about, and this isn't something parents should do to their children, ever, whether they are stressed or not. Don't blame yourself for the way you are, I'm sure they don't know how hard things are for you right now. You are you and I'm sure you're a beautiful person with a kind sould. I hope you feel better soon love, sending warm hugs to you!

 

[Minsu]

Awh thank you so much. I was born and raised in the US but my background is primarily arab and also Indonesian so my parents r both born Muslim so I would say my culture is like asian muslim idk lol tbh I think t's just my family that really forces it onto me and makes everything about it. But it's nice to meet you too!! Sending back virtual hugss

Also wdym by authorities watching? sorry I'm kinda still new, is it like people are watching this site and they will track try to u?

Oh I see, stay strong nice to meet you too!
Yea something like that so be careful when providing any personal information here.
You can text me whenever you want btw. Good nigh/morning

 

[Sunoo]

Oh I see, stay strong nice to meet you too!
Yea something like that so be careful when providing any personal information here.
You can text me whenever you want btw. Good nigh/morning

Ohhh understand now tyy!
You can text me too f you ever need someone to talk too <3

 

[GettingOut]

hearing them tell me directly to ctb makes me so sad like I feel like my insides are smashed idk I just idk it's sad I know they said all that because they are stressed but it was not the first time so Idk.

Parents who don't give shit will never know how empty we feel when seeing a father and mother that lovingly cares and protects their child. This is the perfect breeding ground for an anxious avoidant attachment style in a child that really fucks up your life, prevents you from enjoying any fulfilling relationship. The only way to escape the unbearable amount of pain and emptiness, is to ctb.

I hope they finally realise how hard it was for me once I successfully ctb

This is the most logical conclusion, but they won't feel a thing. They will continue to blame the person they pushed off the cliff for the bad choices the person made.

I suspect that my parents wouldn't even realize what I was going through even if I ctb'ed.. they're both selfish af and brainwashed

Totally agree with you. If the person were to miraculously come back from the dead, they would tar and feather him/her for putting THEM through an event where THEY didn't have FULL control. In their eyes, they haven't made any mistakes and will NEVER change their actions. We are the only ones that pay the ultimate price cause we cannot stand the pain.

 

[Oncologynurz123]

I was sick today and in the car they kept saying how they do so much for me and how they work so hard and how their friend's daughters are better than me. And then they both told me if I wanted to kill myself I should do it now and they started mocking me and saying how sad I was and they continued telling me to go ahead and ctb. And then my mum started shouting about how tired she is as well and asking me how other people aren't sad like me. Hearing this just makes me want to ctb sooner. And hearing them tell me directly to ctb makes me so sad like I feel like my insides are smashed idk I just idk it's sad I know they said all that because they are stressed but it was not the first time so Idk. I just want someone to hold me and tell me it's ok idk D:

Please remember your parents are people too. They may want to cbt and can't talk about it without losing their jobs, and custody of you. It sounds like they are exhausted and don't know what else to do to help you. She might have said go ahead and ctb, but I don't think she meant it at all. She's just at her wits end, it sounds like.
Please, I'm not taking their side, I respect your feelings. It sucks. I know, I've been there. Please dm me to talk more.

Please remember your parents are people too. They may want to cbt and can't talk about it without losing their jobs, and custody of you. It sounds like they are exhausted and don't know what else to do to help you. She might have said go ahead and ctb, but I don't think she meant it at all. She's just at her wits end, it sounds like.
Please, I'm not taking their side, I respect your feelings. It sucks. I know, I've been there. Please dm me to talk more.

They say to kill yourself because they think there's no way in hell that you will actually do it. But that's playing a dangerous game. Are you actually old enough to be on this forum? I only say this, not to be judgemental, but sometimes hating your folks only has to last another year or so. Wait and see. Some of us have no folks at all. Then see where and how your suicidal instincts take you. Saying this from pain, and love.

 

[GettingOut]

It sounds like they are exhausted and don't know what else to do to help you. She might have said go ahead and ctb, but I don't think she meant it at all.

When the 10 mins of pleasure turns into a responsibility, parents need to make sure they bring up that child in a stable, loving, protected environment. Any parent that tells their child to ctb "without meaning it," doesn't deserve to be a parent at all. In my experience, they weren't emotionally ready for the responsibility to have kids at all. There is absolutely no justification for their actions!

 

[angel444]

im so sorry you had to go through that... i can definitely relate. my only present parent has said similar things to me. like i should just go ctb if im actually serious, n also saying my thoughts and feelings are ridiculous ect. some people will never understand, it almost feels illegal how people like this are allowed to have kids. remember your feelings and thoughts are valid , even if the people around you are invalidating them .

 

[Sunoo]

Please remember your parents are people too. They may want to cbt and can't talk about it without losing their jobs, and custody of you. It sounds like they are exhausted and don't know what else to do to help you. She might have said go ahead and ctb, but I don't think she meant it at all. She's just at her wits end, it sounds like.
Please, I'm not taking their side, I respect your feelings. It sucks. I know, I've been there. Please dm me to talk more.

They say to kill yourself because they think there's no way in hell that you will actually do it. But that's playing a dangerous game. Are you actually old enough to be on this forum? I only say this, not to be judgemental, but sometimes hating your folks only has to last another year or so. Wait and see. Some of us have no folks at all. Then see where and how your suicidal instincts take you. Saying this from pain, and love.

Oh I never thought about it that way, it kind of makes me guilty not gonna lie. Yeah just turned 19 so I'm not underage I still live with my parents though and I'm hoping to move out soon if I can pull enough money somehow . I think my parents are always stressed and they might take it out on me and I kind of understand that
Thank you for your point of view

 

[wheretfami]

Wtf is wrong with her, my God. I'm so sorry you have to put up with this bullshit, that's abusive as fuck

 

[Jamesun]

Feel I feel the same, I think that for my family I am a burden, especially for my father, my mother I think has already given up on me because I never stop feeling bad, that makes me want to CTB even more.

 

[Sunoo]

Feel I feel the same, I think that for my family I am a burden, especially for my father, my mother I think has already given up on me because I never stop feeling bad, that makes me want to CTB even more.

yeah I get what you mean, ever since I was small I've felt like a burden wherever I went and I feel no connection with any relatives or friends.
I wish I could help you

 

[Scattered-Soul]

I'm so sorry that you have to deal with that, my father's the same way and very often this type of parents will and do suffer if their children end up doing it. Even if the person stays alive this often leads to them distancing themselves from their parents and then those parents complain about that happening, you know how it goes. I don't get why it has to get to that point though, like why don't you listen and appreciate your child while they're alive or while they're still trying to communicate with you? Seriously, if you have kids then be a proper parent, at the very least don't insult them and encourage them to hurt themselves. But I digress. I don't know you as a person but I have a feeling that you really don't deserve to be in this situation and you simply want to be loved. You have so much more value than what they treat you as, you deserve to live and be happy and have people who love you and uplift you. I really hope that if you were to stay alive you'd be able to find the affection you're seeking even if it's not from your parents.

 

[Oncologynurz123]

When the 10 mins of pleasure turns into a responsibility, parents need to make sure they bring up that child in a stable, loving, protected environment. Any parent that tells their child to ctb "without meaning it," doesn't deserve to be a parent at all. In my experience, they weren't emotionally ready for the responsibility to have kids at all. There is absolutely no justification for their actions!

I agree with you, to a point. But are you perfect? Have you never said something in anger or frustration you've come to regret? Many parents might not have been ready to have children, might have been a drunken mistake, condom broke, whatever. That doesn't make their words less hurtful or damaging, agreed. Just trying to see both sides.