I am really, really sorry!
I actually just woke up from a nasty panic based nightmare myself, since my room ran out of air and I was suffocating.
I guess in a way, something was wrong after all though.
I have nothing against self harm or people that do it, but it's those mental health services or family members that are around who may think otherwise.
When I stayed at the mental hospital, at least 10 people with doctors included would ask me what the scars are all about, expecting a serious and meaningful explanation as if I have to justify my actions to them. One patient even laughed and made fun of my self harm scars, calling them tattoos and then calling me a masochist.
Shame on those people, but... Enough about what my situation was like. Please, whatever happens and whatever you do, make sure to hide them.
I am worried they may start bugging you with questions too or start to call those health services for help which... Makes it a nightmare for the person that is harming.
If you have a way to treat them, the wounds, I'd say do it somewhere in secret like a bathroom, with the door locked. Put a band aid, some sort of wrapping and some sort of disinfectant too. In the end, make sure no one can see blood of any kind and cover the scars or wounds with clothing or clothes I mean. I know it's far from the perfect solution, but at least if it helps for a time being... I simply hope no one sees you, because I worry they may do terrible things to you like they did with me.
Another alternative to the blade is an ice cube, but if you are in too much emotional pain it may not work at all.
Placing ice on a sensitive part of the skin as an alternative to self harm.
I wish I knew how to help more properly... With me and self harm, it stopped an year or so ago, mainly because it does not work as much for me anymore.
There is one final idea I have, that perhaps could help in some way but... I am not sure if it will be right.
But please, if you can, try to shake the panic off, I know it's very difficult, but resist it for as long as possible.
I am so sorry though, if only there was something more all of us could have done here in the thread...
I guess we can only hope the panic attacks stop for you and you manage to find some peace.