Venting Overwhelmed and Venting

[like-spoiledmilk]

This is silly, I'm mostly just overwhelmed.

I smoked for about six years, just quit a month ago. I'm trying to lose weight the healthy way, which means I can't eat my problems away or stay drunk. I can't starve to feel in control, I'm applying for jobs so I can't take gummies either. This feels like trying to control my body without any reins.

All of that just steeps me in how miserable I am. Exempt from work momentarily, even entirely alone, I can't escape myself - and I hate myself. I'm terribly lonely, but I'm terrified of relationships simultaneously. It's better to stay alone than put people through a dance of hot and cold. Everyone, from friends to family to partners, complains about how often I disappear. I've learned that it's better to stay alone until I figure it out.

I just cannot for the sake of me figure anything out. I don't know who I want to be. I don't know why I get stuck. I don't know how to see a way out of me, anynlongrr not I've been on medication, gone to therapy, and it's not helpful.

I don't know if there's much to do from here. Thanks for reading if you have

 

[tonicer]

Sounds like a time problem. If you give yourself the time it might fix itself. Be a bit patient with yourself. It took my decades to come to terms with myself at least a bit. I missed out on lot of stuff young people get to do but i somehow made it to 40+ and i am somewhat proud of myself. I don't know how old you are but you sound pretty young still so don't worry so much and just try to survive somehow because it might get better in the future.

 

[like-spoiledmilk]

Sounds like a time problem. If you give yourself the time it might fix itself. Be a bit patient with yourself. It took my decades to come to terms with myself at least a bit. I missed out on lot of stuff young people get to do but i somehow made it to 40+ and i am somewhat proud of myself. I don't know how old you are but you sound pretty young still so don't worry so much and just try to survive somehow because it might get better in the future.

Thank you. This has helped a lot today
I'm 27, I feel like thirty's around the corner now. I thought I would have everything figured out by now - a husband, kids, a job I don't hate, friends, a house. It's been rough reconciling reality with expectations.

Still, I got through today at least. Thank you, again. If you don't mind me asking, how was your process of coming to terms with yourself?