Venting Overtime, i realized how selfish my own parents (and sickengly, probably the parents of millions) genuinely are.

[worthlessChimefan]

I'm not sure where to post this antinatalist + suicidal mess, so I'm posting it here.

Most parents, including my own, are less than perfect, ever since i was young, if i was outside the perfect christian image, if i showed emotions, if i failed at shit, if i came out as trans or some shit, they would threaten to beat me up, or kick me out, yet they want me to truly believe that they love me? this is dumb

as a trans person, i realized pretty early on what my parents actually fucking want, they want to raise kids to fulfill their messed up fantasies, kids who are easy to groom, easy to control, not humans, actual fucking living dolls, their love is as conditional and built on as much pain and neglect as possible, for what? to fulfill a hateful God in the sky? "Spare the rod" when you shouldn't even been trying to beat me up despite insisting you want me here,

just tell me you want me to die, it will save us the trouble, i will stop being lied to and being in pain, keep in mind, pain they keep invalidating and forcing to pray away, and they will save money and resources, my nonexistience benefits all of us, you keep whining about how hard it is to be you, when you don't listen to me, when you can't do the bare minimum of actually keeping me safe and giving me love in a world that wants me dead, they are just like the others, people who hate me, want me gone and would sigh with relief at the thought of me hanging myself

 

[PI3.14]

All of us have a story in our head that we want to live, our stories might include being successful, finding love, having kids...etc.

By committing suicide, we ruin the story of our parents, we introduce an unexpected, or perhaps expected but still unfavorable event, that ruin their story. Their story now isn't just incomplete, but also damaged in a very big way.

I acknowledge my selfishness to want to die, but my selfishness isn't more than that of my parents'. Both sides are trying to protect their emotions, their story, but I do think that we should have the right to end it regardless.

I can't imagine having a kid that's suffering from disorders or life related stuff that I can't help fix, and yet telling them to keep living so I don't get hurt.

 

[Macedonian1987]

I can't imagine having a kid that's suffering from disorders or life related stuff than I can't help fix, and yet telling them to keep living so I don't get hurt.

This is the reason I decided long time ago that I will never have any children. Even when I was just 18-19 years old I firmly said that I never want to have any kids and everyone thought that I was a weirdo for saying that. I can't understand for the life of me the urge of people wanting to have kids. Don't they feel sorry for condemning those little souls (kids) to a lifetime of suffering?