Venting Overcome SI regarding SN & (maybe?) Trying my SN - A THREAD

[j1nxxb0yjj4ke]

Hey,

I got my SN :3 and idk, I wanted to even just try a little with like 2-5g because that's the minimum lethal amount and there's this thread:

Testing SN - How to get to hospital (fast)

Hello guys and girls, First of all: I apologize for any spelling or grammatical errors, I'm from Germany/Austria and unfortunately I'm not a native speaker. I don’t know why it took me so long so tell you my story but today I decided to do exactly that: My story of what happens when you try SN...

sanctioned-suicide.net

Yesterday(!) I was on the phone with my ..gf? Idk what we are but we say I love you and have a history/past together..
My pulse got so high while reading this. with the SN in my drawer..
I told her that I had SN and explained what it is.
She is just worried, didn't call any cops, rescue team, etc
I had to promise to her that I wouldn't do it but I don't care about these promises anymore because
A. I either die and well, what they gonna do? Be mad?
B. I'll live and it won't matter.

I realised I probably wanna go through, maybe now/the next few hours? Or at least soon, I *think*(!)
But as you all read,
When I JUST thought of it, I got tachycardia,
I got a bit nauseous, I was shaking.

Is this SI?
How do I overcome it?

How does 20-25g of SN in water taste like?
Why cant I just use some fruit juice?

Should I attempt 2-5g in some juice?
And no, nobody will come in my room to check on my at night.

I've got nothing to lose,
If I don't die w/ the 2-5g fruit juice try,
then I'll be probably alive, do my own thing,
do my music, clothes, etc
Maybe even have motivation.


This probably also become a thread of me trying my SN with the fruit juice.
I haven't eaten in over 8h.
Havent drank anything.
Still have benzos in my blood, and some benzos on my nightstand.

I will probably update this 12am or latest 3/4am (UTC+1)
If I don't update, I haven't gone through with it or have opened a new thread.

If any of you could motivate me, I'd be happy.

 

[.twilight.girl.]

i don't have much to add other than you should only drink water, not a juice. it could reduce the potency of the SN per "Stans Guide"
good luck

 

[TheHolySword]

The recommended use is to dissolve it fully in water. Juices, pop, etc. are acidic and will make it harder for your body to absorb the SN as well as make it likely for you to vomit. As far as overcoming SI, it just isn't easy. It's millions of years of evolution, it's coded in your DNA to keep you alive. People have gotten past this through things like alcohol or drugs but this is not recommended for the SN method for various reasons. Getting over SI is a personal endeavor. It's also okay if you aren't ready or are unsure, if you need time to think and process then you should take as long as you need. I don't mean this rudely but no one is going to motivate you to ctb. I do hope that you find peace

 

[Rhymester]

Am I the only one who thinks SN tastes like sugar?

 

[Tarinel]

Am I the only one who thinks SN tastes like sugar?

Yes. It is salty

 

[Valhala]

Regarding SI when using SN, only benzos and anti-tachycardia medicine, alcohol is contraindicated due to vomiting and resorption of SN. Fruit juice also negatively affects resorption and increases the risk of vomiting, and trying 2-5 g in juice, in my opinion, makes absolutely no sense , neither will your SI be smaller nor will you have a safe "exit". Either the prescribed dose in water or give up everything. Maybe you should think about everything again.