KeyTheBlooper
New Member
- Nov 17, 2025
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I am an Artist & gamer. When I was prompted as to why I wanted to make an account on this site I didn't know where to start. Like many people on this website I've survived way too much pain than a human should go through.
I've survived human trafficking, childhood neglect, deadly domestic violence that I'm currently trying to escape, and then on top of all that I was recently raped.
Here in Canada, we have "free healthcare" that you have to wait years and years and years for. They tell you to breathe, they give you medication, they put you in groups where you can't even talk about your problems unless you trigger someone, but in all honesty I understand about getting triggered. One on one counseling is rare and expensive.
I am so lonely and isolated because of all the crazy trauma that I've experienced. None of my friends truly understand. I had one friend who used to always roll her eyes at me and tell me that I'm so pretty and I handle the pain so well, and that I never cry anyways so I shouldn't complain. I don't think anyone's looks should have anything to do with getting empathy from friends.
I can give my doctors and counsellors all the proof, I can have all the physical and mental conditions that someone that has went through the things that I've went through would have and yet it doesn't help. It's very hard to find work other than the online adult entertainment I do now. It's very hard to find friends and community and it's damn near impossible to find a romantic partner. Sometimes the loneliness is worse than the memories.
I wish I could find someone in my city that was as weird and lonely and broken as I am that could understand what it's like.
I feel like my only way out is death and I've attempted a few times this year and I feel so ashamed when I failed. Everyone's complacent nature does help push me further. Sometimes I practice and scout places and methods, but then the police often come by and ask me if I'm ok and completely blow up my attempt. I have to pretend I'm ok and then just go home.
Does anyone else feel this way and has experienced the isolation from friends and romantic relationships making how they feel even worse?
-Key
I've survived human trafficking, childhood neglect, deadly domestic violence that I'm currently trying to escape, and then on top of all that I was recently raped.
Here in Canada, we have "free healthcare" that you have to wait years and years and years for. They tell you to breathe, they give you medication, they put you in groups where you can't even talk about your problems unless you trigger someone, but in all honesty I understand about getting triggered. One on one counseling is rare and expensive.
I am so lonely and isolated because of all the crazy trauma that I've experienced. None of my friends truly understand. I had one friend who used to always roll her eyes at me and tell me that I'm so pretty and I handle the pain so well, and that I never cry anyways so I shouldn't complain. I don't think anyone's looks should have anything to do with getting empathy from friends.
I can give my doctors and counsellors all the proof, I can have all the physical and mental conditions that someone that has went through the things that I've went through would have and yet it doesn't help. It's very hard to find work other than the online adult entertainment I do now. It's very hard to find friends and community and it's damn near impossible to find a romantic partner. Sometimes the loneliness is worse than the memories.
I wish I could find someone in my city that was as weird and lonely and broken as I am that could understand what it's like.
I feel like my only way out is death and I've attempted a few times this year and I feel so ashamed when I failed. Everyone's complacent nature does help push me further. Sometimes I practice and scout places and methods, but then the police often come by and ask me if I'm ok and completely blow up my attempt. I have to pretend I'm ok and then just go home.
Does anyone else feel this way and has experienced the isolation from friends and romantic relationships making how they feel even worse?
-Key
