SimplyTopHat
Student
- Mar 20, 2019
- 163
I'm not really sure where this post is going to go, but I knew I just had to start somewhere.
I want to kill myself.
This isn't news per say, but I guess it is to you. I've wanted to die for as long as I can remember. But didn't make my first attempt until I was 25 (2015). I tried several times over the course of 3 months, using varying methods after I mustered up the courage to do it again after each failed attempt. Learned a few things off the net &even stumbled across SS back when it existed as a Reddit page. I didn't realize then, just how hard it is to actually kill yourself.
Had no idea.
After a few friends managed to drag me figuratively off the ledge I'd been standing on, I started therapy, was put on medication &life continued as usual.
FFW >>> 5 years &I can honestly say, I hate the phrase "It gets better."
I don't have a concrete date set, but I'm starting to gather what I'll need.
I want to kill myself.
This isn't news per say, but I guess it is to you. I've wanted to die for as long as I can remember. But didn't make my first attempt until I was 25 (2015). I tried several times over the course of 3 months, using varying methods after I mustered up the courage to do it again after each failed attempt. Learned a few things off the net &even stumbled across SS back when it existed as a Reddit page. I didn't realize then, just how hard it is to actually kill yourself.
Had no idea.
After a few friends managed to drag me figuratively off the ledge I'd been standing on, I started therapy, was put on medication &life continued as usual.
FFW >>> 5 years &I can honestly say, I hate the phrase "It gets better."
I don't have a concrete date set, but I'm starting to gather what I'll need.
