Story Out of time

[donsie]

I spent last night in a hotel, thought I could pull the trigger. I couldn't help but think what happens to the bullet and how I could put another life at risk. Maybe this is my SI. Maybe it's the thought I'd this some how fails and I hurt another life, I'll be charged and that just makes life worse.

Going back to the car today. I have a few spots and believe I found some privacy areas. It's not my first chosen spot, but if I walk where I want to go, I'll freeze and that doesn't sound like a way to go.

I've written my letters, prepared for my exit the best I could.

Today is it… I feel it. All the emotions and thoughts that have tortured me throughout my life, they are not here right now.

I feel determined and at peace with my decision. It's different this time. I've cried a bit, but only out of sadness for others.

Some say suicide is selfish, I feel selfish right now. This is about me, not them. If they cared so much about me, they would have cared more about my feelings and acted better.

I'm out of time, today is the day.

 

[Imprisoned]

I hope you finally find peace from this hellish existance. I can't wait for my final day, when my torture will finally be nearing its end. Good luck..

 

[imdepressed999]

Today is the day for me to my friend, although my method will not be using a firearm even through i purchased one but i hate loud noises, so the method is not for me. Instead, my method will be to use Fent to fall into a blissful sleep then die. I am also a bit out of time too. Next month i have certain bills due i will not be able to pay due to losing my job. We all die anyway in the end. Most people are not crying for you they are crying for themselves. it takes a strong person to be selfish enough to do what is best for them. Do what you want to do. I hope to maybe see you on the other side if there is one. Peace my friend.

 

[Dingusguy]

I hope you find the peace you're looking for, living a life that makes you feel terrible or sad is hell, so if you manage to CTB I hope you rest well.

 

[rozeske]

I wish you all the best whatever you decide. If you decide to go through with it, I wish you a smooth and painless ride to the other side. I hope you find your peace and freedom either way

 

[donsie]

I wish you all the best whatever you decide. If you decide to go through with it, I wish you a smooth and painless ride to the other side. I hope you find your peace and freedom either way

Thank you. I've grown fawn of your postings. Out of curiosity, I feel like you will answer this… but do people actually want to know if we succeed? After a good bye thread, I find myself searching for a news article about them and want to know them. It's silly. I was thinking of doing a delayed post with info to feed the curiosity of others.

 

[rozeske]

Thank you. I've grown fawn of your postings. Out of curiosity, I feel like you will answer this… but do people actually want to know if we succeed? After a good bye thread, I find myself searching for a news article about them and want to know them. It's silly. I was thinking of doing a delayed post with info to feed the curiosity of others.

Its not silly. Knowing is always better than wondering. I am more interested in knowing the person has read my wishes before they leave, for whatever comfort it gives them. I too am planning on leaving a delayed post.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you find the freedom you search for, best of luck.