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For everyone here wondering about his reliability, etc.. I can say that hes like Amazon. Paid him Monday and in under 48 hours, the product was delivered. Was nervous about customs and never tracked the package, but it did arrive with no issues.
 
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mementomori01

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Aug 1, 2021
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What country did you order to? I ordered the other day and am in Australia. Hoping I have the same luck with customs! Glad it worked out for you smoothly.
 
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roguetrader

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I'm in the western part of USA, not far from Mexico.
 
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sadpinky

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Jun 10, 2021
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Can someone explain to me what is D and what is A when referring to ordering N ? I'm very confused and would like to know
 
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FTL.Wanderer

Enlightened
May 31, 2018
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Can someone explain to me what is D and what is A when referring to ordering N ? I'm very confused and would like to know
I think those are the first initials of suppliers reputable sources (like the Peace Pill Handbook) mention.
 
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mementomori01

Member
Aug 1, 2021
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I'm in the western part of USA, not far from Mexico.
A much quicker journey than all the way to to AUS i guess haha! But it says my package has been released from customs and is est to arrive tomorrow so fingers crossed I have the same luck as you :)
 
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slyna

Student
Jul 30, 2021
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A much quicker journey than all the way to to AUS i guess haha! But it says my package has been released from customs and is est to arrive tomorrow so fingers crossed I have the same luck as you :)
When Did you make the order?
 
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MissMaryMack

New Member
Mar 12, 2021
3
I first emailed D on Monday. Was shocked how quick the whole process was!
How do you order this? Who do I email? Can you provide me with more details. I currently have SN but feel N would be more peaceful. Thank you!
 
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iscrewedup

hi
Jun 22, 2021
8
I wonder if he can ship to EU
 
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FTL.Wanderer

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May 31, 2018
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How do you order this? Who do I email? Can you provide me with more details. I currently have SN but feel N would be more peaceful. Thank you!
Can you share why you think N would be more peaceful than SN? (Thanks...)
 
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MissMaryMack

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Mar 12, 2021
3
Can you share why you think N would be more peaceful than SN? (Thanks...)
Can you share why you think N would be more peaceful than SN? (Thanks...)
It's what I've read in the past, though I thought it was only available via prescription. Can you please share how I get in contact with D. I've searched the website but I am at a loss. I would be very much obliged.
 
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FTL.Wanderer

Enlightened
May 31, 2018
1,782
Can you please share how I get in contact with D. I've searched the website but I am at a loss. I would be very much obliged.
There used to be a collection of resources on this website that had a lot of good info. I'll check to see if it's still up.
 
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burntoutfrontliner

Member
Aug 4, 2021
15
For everyone here wondering about his reliability, etc.. I can say that hes like Amazon. Paid him Monday and in under 48 hours, the product was delivered. Was nervous about customs and never tracked the package, but it did arrive with no issues.
I need to find D. Tried another foolproof well researched method. Now here I am hurting everywhere cause 2 days later I can't really walk straight or get my balance. I need N. :( now I'm scared I've just went through that first attempt, and I'm going to be left like this. Not able to walk without trying to fall down. If you want to pm you can. Not asking you to. Just saying you could if you want to. Thanks
 
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SuicidalAgain

Dummy
Sep 9, 2020
107
Anyone with info regarding shipping to Europe? Anyone with problems with customs, etc? Feel free to pm me if you prefer. Thanks!
I need to find D. Tried another foolproof well researched method. Now here I am hurting everywhere cause 2 days later I can't really walk straight or get my balance. I need N. :( now I'm scared I've just went through that first attempt, and I'm going to be left like this. Not able to walk without trying to fall down. If you want to pm you can. Not asking you to. Just saying you could if you want to. Thanks
Sorry to hear that. That also happened to me after my first attempt, but that was long before I ever found a site as nice as this one. Can you share what foolproof well researched method did you try and what do you think went wrong?
 
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burntoutfrontliner

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Aug 4, 2021
15
Anyone with info regarding shipping to Europe? Anyone with problems with customs, etc? Feel free to pm me if you prefer. Thanks!

Sorry to hear that. That also happened to me after my first attempt, but that was long before I ever found a site as nice as this one. Can you share what foolproof well researched method did you try and what do you think went wrong?
30 of 100mg tablets orphenadrine, 20 of 1 mg tabs klonopin, crushed put in tint small pudding snack pack cup. Ate it. Washed it down with about five ambien to make sure I'd sleep through anything that happened. The next thing I know, I'm awake but can't see straight, can't walk right, dizzy, everything everywhere on my body hurts. Probably from falling into stuff. I think in my stupor, I kept wanting to get up for some reason. So I'd try and fall down… and then kept "Chumbawamba"ing again. ‍♀️
 
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FTL.Wanderer

Enlightened
May 31, 2018
1,782
I need to find D. Tried another foolproof well researched method. Now here I am hurting everywhere cause 2 days later I can't really walk straight or get my balance. I need N. :( now I'm scared I've just went through that first attempt, and I'm going to be left like this. Not able to walk without trying to fall down.
Are you willing to share more--either in this forum or via PM? I'm terrified of botching my attempt and being in an even worse position. Sorry you're hurting.
 
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burntoutfrontliner

Member
Aug 4, 2021
15
Are you willing to share more--either in this forum or via PM? I'm terrified of botching my attempt and being in an even worse position. Sorry you're hurting.
I've always known TCAs are lethal (ami, nor, the tryptillines). But I had none of that on hand. In addition to the other same resources I found on here, I found another: orphenadrine. I was like, "Whaaattt???" Because it is a muscle relaxer with strong histamine properties as well. I actually had a lot of it on hand, because I'd been Rx'd it a few months ago for my back. I couldn't take very many of them though, because whenever I would try to take 1 pill, it would knock me out. Stayed drowsy on it. Could not function. So I stopped taking them. Hence why I had so many left. The recipe called for 30 of the 100 mg tablets, approximately 20 (I did 25 to make sure) longer acting benzos. Valium acts the longest but klonopin is a close second and what I could get a hold of. It said after making the concoction (you put all pills into mortar and pestle, or a ziplock bag, close it, then crush them up with whatever lol. Then you take one of those tiny, kid sized snack packs or the smallest cup of applesauce. Mix well, eat it as quickly as possible, wash down with a few sips of maybe apple juice to get the taste out….. then again, I ALSO downed with my 1-2 mouthfuls of apple juice 5 pills ambien 10 mg. Sleep came soon. I never vomited. I premedicated with 8 mg zofran. I don't remember much but it's like after I passed out, my body kept trying to wake itself up, trying to make me get up and walk or get help where my body knew something wasn't right. I remember hallucinating things that weren't happening. I remember trying to walk but not being able to keep my balance at all, so I'd fall every second into something. Walls, doors, cabinets, against the couch, I just couldn't walk. I finally made it back to bed. After that, I think I slept a really long time. Like 24 hours long. I woke up like "wtf. What am I still doin here..? I was aggravated and ticked. When I'd try to stand up and walk, same thing. I have bruises all over, a few pump knots on my head. But I'm starting to be able to walk a whole lot better and starting to get my appetite back (the thought of any food or drink the first day or two made me wanna puke). I've ate a small bowl of chicken noodle soup, water and rested every day since it happened. I'm not sure why it didn't work, because it was compiled into a list with the other methods exactly and said no one had ever survived that combination. Usually I'd say "well you're so lucky you did!" But no… not with this. With this, I am the most UNLUCKY at getting what I need. This makes my third or fourth attempt now.

one of my previous attempts was in 2017. I took 300 (yes, three hundred) pills of labetalol (a strong high powered beta blocker we give to people sometimes in hypertensive crisis), and a brand new, freshly opened bottle of 100 Tylenol 500 mg. Survived that concoction too and definitely shouldn't have. I woke up to a woman shoving an NG tube down my throat like she wanted to kill me herself (wish she would've lol. Would save me a lot of trouble). However it had been about 36 hours since I'd taken all this. I took the Tylenol as backup, so my liver would fail, if the labetalol didn't work. With it being more than 36 hours past me taking it, I knew the Tylenol antidote wouldn't help (mucomyst). They put me on it anyway. ‍♀️ but then I got stuck in ICU for almost a week, and then had to stay down in inpatient psych for like 4 or 5 days after that. Believe me when I say, I would def take my firearm and do it before I'm being involuntarily committed again. No. No way.
I still don't understand how neither of these attempts have worked. So, I want something extremely foolproof.
 
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FTL.Wanderer

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May 31, 2018
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Believe me when I say, I would def take my firearm and do it before I'm being involuntarily committed again. No. No way.
I still don't understand how neither of these attempts have worked. So, I want something extremely foolproof.
Thanks for being so open. That's a heart-wrenching and frightening story. One of my biggest fears is surviving an attempt. Stories like yours, and I've read a few of them, make me reconsider firearms... Do you have faith in N?
 
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burntoutfrontliner

Member
Aug 4, 2021
15
Thanks for being so open. That's a heart-wrenching and frightening story. One of my biggest fears is surviving an attempt. Stories like yours, and I've read a few of them, make me reconsider firearms... Do you have faith in N?
I cannot say exactly WHY I have faith in N. But yes I absolutely do. There's a reason most call me by a fictional television character's name (started as a nickname from one incurable, who led many others to me):
— House
 
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FTL.Wanderer

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May 31, 2018
1,782
I cannot say exactly WHY I have faith in N. But yes I absolutely do. There's a reason most call me by a fictional television character's name (started as a nickname from one incurable, who led many others to me):
— House
I wish you peace and success, whatever you choose.
 
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