SomethingsOff
i need a permanent nap - they/them
- Feb 8, 2023
- 36
So I've stated before that I plan on CTBing late August, and hopefully at the latest September- all depends on the waiting period once I am able to afford a shotgun. My friends are starting to worry about me. I don't want them to interfere. I'm trying to emotionally distance myself so my death hurts them less but especially if I block them this early there's a decent chance they may call the police or something, since out of the few I have, a decent amount know I'm suicidal. I do still live with my parents and I made the stupid mistake a while back of giving one if my friends my mother's contact so he'd reach out to her. But I can't keep making up excuses about why I'm not answering them for days on end especially friends who I used to talk to every day. Any opinions on when I should start blocking and deleting contacts? Should I do it now or wait until perhaps the day before I CTB?