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Suidice

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Nov 10, 2025
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Some days i'm very suicidal, and have an impulse to kill myself then and there. But some days i feel negative towards suicide and don't wish to do it. Does anyone else feel the same? My opinion on the subject can change in mere hours/days.
 
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LastNite

LastNite

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Mar 31, 2025
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I feel the same. It depends on what goes on your life. I barely go outside because Im not given any reason to. When I do and I find some decent interactions which btw are very common for a normal person it makes me feel okay or better. I think about it and I start to feel less suicidal but when Im back home alone every negative feelings come back.


Btw wow the name you got. I wouldve thought someone already grabbed it by now since the site is about suicide. But hey you got it now welcome.
 
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Vlad Tepes

Vlad Tepes

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Jun 24, 2025
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You and me both, friend
 
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Owlette

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Mar 2, 2023
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I'm kind of similar, somedays im not depressed but im still suicidal. Sometimes im on the verge and at other times im neither. It's pretty weird..
 
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whywere

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Jun 26, 2020
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With BPD along with massive depression, my thoughts and moods and change in a flash.

With my chronic pain, like today, the suicide ideation is beyond the stars and back.

Walter
 
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TheFalseWidow

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Oct 28, 2025
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I feel better sometimes too, but I've spent years counting the good days and the bad and things mostly just suck most days
 
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sevencolorfulmoths

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Nov 5, 2025
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Yeah, it's kind of like that for me, though I still desire to not exist even on the better days
 
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Pale_Rider

Pale_Rider

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Apr 21, 2025
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I never have a negative opinion of suicide for myself, but others yes. Especially those who haven't exhausted all of their alternative options. For my self the pendulum is begrudged admission that I cant [ due to ethical consideration ] to I will as soon as I out maneuver SI.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
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I never have a negative opinion for my suicide. it's the only thing I can do and want to do

only i can fix my problems .and so i just need to focus all my time and energy on fixing my problems and not worry about anything else especially things I can't change or what other humans are doing . nobody is going to help me only my actions can get me out of this worst trap and worst hell of all time

nothing matters .what that we do today will matter in 150 years? in a 1000 years ? nothing

but I only want to avoid unbearable long lasting pain for me And my suicide is the way

I could not care less what others choose to do or don't do with their own personal lives.
 
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