I have BPD. I have been open about my struggles and how BPD manifest and affect my daily life. It was stimulated due to horrific child abuse. bullying, continued trauma well into my adulthood. I am left with one mindset: suicide. That all my problems can be dealt with effectively by suicide. This seems to be an irrational thought. And it is. But it feels right to me. Some days the trauma and memories of what was robbed of me leave so traumatized that I actively research how to die. I genuinely feel that I will not be able to live a normal life in spite of my trauma and the pain is paramount. Though I am in therapy, I wish that the option of euthanasia was legal where I live. I fear one day acting impulsively and I may not be able to stop myself in the moment. I had a big scare 3 days ago and I feel I am slowly inching closer to dying
I also want to note that I do believe that one should give recovery a chance. Be it therapy, medication, DBT, CBT, etc. However, that should also be comorbid with euthenasia