Only one thing holding me back

[Trashcan]

My SN is coming Thursday. I have antiemetics (prescribed for a genuine medical condition, don't know how to get them if you don't need them for a physiological condition). I have a gun and all the things needed to fire it. I plan to test it tomorrow... just need to be able to sneak it out to an isolated place without anyone seeing it (it's a long gun). Although I'm overall excited, death being permanent kind of makes me a bit hesitant. Can anyone relate?

 

[Susannah]

Of course I can relate. It's scary to live and scary to die. You seem really prepared now, and I would imagine that phase is heavy in every way. Hug to you.

 

[Justanotherconsumer]

Yes, the whole ceasing to exist can be quite anxiety producing, but its actually worse if your not expecting it, i had a natural death scenario where i was sure i was going to die and thats the worse I've ever felt that feeling of non existance, I've had multiple attempts on my own terms and never felt that terror of non existance.

Are you going by sn or gun?

 

[Trashcan]

Yes, the whole ceasing to exist can be quite anxiety producing, but its actually worse if your not expecting it, i had a natural death scenario where i was sure i was going to die and thats the worse I've ever felt that feeling of non existance, I've had multiple attempts on my own terms and never felt that terror of non existance.

Are you going by sn or gun?

Both. On the big day I'll take an antiemetic. 30 minutes later, I'll take SN then shoot myself. This is so that if I somehow survive pointing the barrel in my head and aiming it toward the brain stem, at least something else will do the job.

 

[InkBlot]

Both. On the big day I'll take an antiemetic. 30 minutes later, I'll take SN then shoot myself. This is so that if I somehow survive pointing the barrel in my head and aiming it toward the brain stem, at least something else will do the job.

Id do SN, then gun later if it fails.
SN causes serious levels of weakness and nausea and dizziness. I only caution you, because I dont want the gun to slip and you end up without a face but still very alive.

Be safe friend.

 

[Jai]

II tried twice with a handgun I know if I had a chance at 3rd attempt no hesitation and do it off a bridge in water or a cliff

 

[Jai]

II tried twice with a handgun I know if I had a chance at 3rd attempt no hesitation and do it off a bridge in water or a cliff

And obviously under the influence of alcohol or drugs

 

[Salvacion]

My SN is coming Thursday. I have antiemetics (prescribed for a genuine medical condition, don't know how to get them if you don't need them for a physiological condition). I have a gun and all the things needed to fire it. I plan to test it tomorrow... just need to be able to sneak it out to an isolated place without anyone seeing it (it's a long gun). Although I'm overall excited, death being permanent kind of makes me a bit hesitant. Can anyone relate?

I feel so horrible for all those that have helped me..... and been supportive...... but I simply cannot endure the penalties I am facing and the hurt they will cause. If I am gone, it all ends.