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Just want it all to be over
- Oct 25, 2021
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I'm starting my final week. My nerves are up because I don't want to fail. I'm still planning on drinking sn on the 7th. My sn is from DD so hopefully I won't have any issues. I don't want to wake up alive like some of the other people. I have a ctb partner which also adds complications but he and I are taking the same sn and the same meds and it will be nice not to die alone. Waking up though would be a nightmare. I hope my family will forgive me. This is going to be a long week. I'm not religious but any prayers or positive thoughts are welcome. I'm not worried about the discomfort I'm just worried about waking up alive. Lots of emotions.