On my way to jump

[John-LW]

I couldn't bring myself to hang myself. I was too much of a coward, so I'm going to jump. There's a big bridge over the A3 nears Portsmouth so keep an eye on the news if youre local. Should be tall enough to kill me. And I'll be over the hard should to avoid hurting anyone innocent.

I wish I had a last phone call with my wife but she is done

 

[Julgran]

I couldn't bring myself to hang myself. I was too much of a coward, so I'm going to jump. There's a big bridge over the A3 nears Portsmouth so keep an eye on the news if youre local. Should be tall enough to kill me. And I'll be over the hard should to avoid hurting anyone innocent.

I wish I had a last phone call with my wife but she is done

You are not a coward for backing down from hanging, but I hope that you find the peace that you seem to be looking for, John

In case you change your mind, you are always welcome back here, too.

 

[Regen]

Maybe it sounds lame, but I'm so sorry for your pain. I wish you peace and tranquility!

 

[jodes2]

What do you mean your wife's done? Sorry it's come to this

 

[Hope:-)]

Remember you can always change your mind and stay here and chat instead. I'm always around if you need to talk. Sending love your way xxx

 

[freedompass]

I couldn't bring myself to hang myself. I was too much of a coward, so I'm going to jump. There's a big bridge over the A3 nears Portsmouth so keep an eye on the news if youre local. Should be tall enough to kill me. And I'll be over the hard should to avoid hurting anyone innocent.

I wish I had a last phone call with my wife but she is done

So sorry for what you're going through. Personally that is not a chance I'd want to take (not dying I mean). I also have no courage for jumping. Wishing you peace whatever happens.

 

[Felix007]

so sorry to hear this, hope you find peace... i could never bring myself to jump, too afraid of the pain and consequences if it goes wrong...

 

[John-LW]

What do you mean your wife's done? Sorry it's come to this

She left me. She won't talk to me.he sister convinced her I was abusive.

 

[jodes2]

She left me. She won't talk to me.he sister convinced her I was abusive.

What a bitch! So sorry about that

 

[MidnightDream]

You're not a coward, SI is a bitch. Wishing you luck, will keep an eye out on the news. You're welcome back here no matter what <3

 

[Euthanza]

You are a brave man to pick this method I could never do because I'm scared of heights. I wish you peace and dignity.

 

[👁️👃👁️]

Hey brother man if you would like to open up and talk to us please feel free to we are here to listen to you and support you in any way that we can.

 

[sharksalapierre]

At least you're braver than me! I couldn't do it, when I was on the edge. I hope you find peace!

 

[theboy]

I hope you find peace in your heart. Do you have any tips to overcome the SI? looking down makes me dread it.

 

[FuneralCry]

I envy those who have the courage to jump. It sounds like a terrifying method to me. I wish you freedom from all suffering.

 

[allblackallwhite]

I wish you a good trip. I hope it's easy and you find the relief you deserve.

She left me. She won't talk to me.he sister convinced her I was abusive.

Same here. She filed for divorce last week. I was diagnosed with BPD and within a week she joined a hate group online and kicked me out. She went from super dedicated we can get through anything to you need to leave to here's the divorce papers all within a month. My head is still spinning. It still doesn't feel real. It's solidified my belief that this life is a nightmare that I need to wake up from.

 

[John-LW]

So I couldn't jump in the end and had the police question me for a hour. I need to find a simpler method. How fucking hard is it to just fucking die?

 

[Hope:-)]

No shame in that. Did the police just let you go?x

 

[John-LW]

I lied through my teeth and stayed as calm as I could. They let me go.

 

[Lonerzepam]

No shame in that. Did the police just let you go?x

Acab

 

[anxiety cat]

I wish you a good trip. I hope it's easy and you find the relief you deserve.


Same here. She filed for divorce last week. I was diagnosed with BPD and within a week she joined a hate group online and kicked me out. She went from super dedicated we can get through anything to you need to leave to here's the divorce papers all within a month. My head is still spinning. It still doesn't feel real. It's solidified my belief that this life is a nightmare that I need to wake up from.

I'm so sorry

Sounds like she needs some diagnosing herself. To be that easily influenced and be able to switch like that is horrible. She doesn't know who she is or what she stands for. You deserve better.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Personally, I feel that jumping is one of the harder methods, at least as far as SI is concerned. But, dying is hard in and of itself when it's being forced. You're no coward, man. It's just plain hard. I wish you some peace, no matter how it comes to you. Good luck.

 

[old red eyes]

So I couldn't jump in the end and had the police question me for a hour. I need to find a simpler method. How fucking hard is it to just fucking die?

As someone with incurable disease so easily avoided with all walls of hell about to descend on me I hope you use your physical health to get over this...I dream of jumping 24/7...it will have to happen...you have more choices...

 

[hamvil]

She left me. She won't talk to me.he sister convinced her I was abusive.

Where you? I am asking because I know by experience that a person can become abusive without realising. I did it and I still regret it. I will not judge you for that you can be sure.

Personally, I feel that jumping is one of the harder methods, at least as far as SI is concerned. But, dying is hard in and of itself when it's being forced. You're no coward, man. It's just plain hard. I wish you some peace, no matter how it comes to you. Good luck.

It is, the body and the mind fight with all forces to stop you from taking that last step. Maybe if in that moment you are very emotional it is easier. Not sure. I did not manage and I tried several times.

 

[John-LW]

Where you? I am asking because I know by experience that a person can become abusive without realising. I did it and I still regret it. I will not judge you for that you can be sure.

It is, the body and the mind fight with all forces to stop you from taking that last step. Maybe if in that moment you are very emotional it is easier. Not sure. I did not manage and I tried several times.

I'm in the uk and I'd prefer to talk privately if that's possible.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Where you? I am asking because I know by experience that a person can become abusive without realising. I did it and I still regret it. I will not judge you for that you can be sure.

It is, the body and the mind fight with all forces to stop you from taking that last step. Maybe if in that moment you are very emotional it is easier. Not sure. I did not manage and I tried several times.

Not being able to go through with it (at this moment) doesn't make you any kind of loser or a coward or anything like that. It makes you human. And it just means that you'll have to stick around, at least for a while, and suffer some more with the rest of us.

 

[Hollowillow]

I was about to say that I hope you can find the courage, because jumping is way harder than partial hanging. I tried 3 partial and 2 plastic bags. I can't even try a bridge, my SI gets mega triggered. I hope you'll find a peaceful way. Sn is so complex to me, I don't know how to get what.

I think I was also given bpd. I read articles that it's a complex ptsd. If I get hypoglycemia or anemia I can get very angry... Might want to look into that. She's discriminating if she abandon someone with a label, psychiatrists are deshumanizing. But if you were violent physically or verbally, then it's better for both of you to not be together. But the grief is unbearable... Best wishes

 

[hamvil]

I wish you a good trip. I hope it's easy and you find the relief you deserve.


Same here. She filed for divorce last week. I was diagnosed with BPD and within a week she joined a hate group online and kicked me out. She went from super dedicated we can get through anything to you need to leave to here's the divorce papers all within a month. My head is still spinning. It still doesn't feel real. It's solidified my belief that this life is a nightmare that I need to wake up from.

I got luckier with my wife, despite all the crap I put on her, my depression, my mood swings, she is still here. Despite also the fact that I told her that I do not love her anymore even. Maybe the fact that she left could be a good thing. She was not always there for you at the end. You can try to build something new maybe. I know that is not easy, for example I am well aware that if I leave my wife I will never find another person again.

I'm so sorry

Sounds like she needs some diagnosing herself. To be that easily influenced and be able to switch like that is horrible. She doesn't know who she is or what she stands for. You deserve better.

Most people just want a simple and quiet life. It takes an exceptional person to accept mental illness and it is very easy to find parents not able to deal with that let also girlfriends or wives.

 

[SexyIncél]

I got luckier with my wife, despite all the crap I put on her, my depression, my mood swings, she is still here. Despite also the fact that I told her that I do not love her anymore even. Maybe the fact that she left could be a good thing. She was not always there for you at the end. You can try to build something new maybe. I know that is not easy, for example I am well aware that if I leave my wife I will never find another person again.

Maybe you can pretend to love her, at least a few minutes a day? I find it helpful to do as many good things as you can for people, before you leave this universe

And make sure that love is only good; vent your darkness elsewhere, no matter if that means (very secretly!) sleeping with sex workers or whatever, as long as she only knows the good