Discussion On a scale of 1 (not surprised at all) - 10 (absolutely shocked), what will the general reaction be after you ctb?

[dissociatedmess]

10. I think everyone just see's it coming at this point. Kinda just waiting for it to happen.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

Rip

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Maybe like 7 for people who know but don't think I'd have the guts to actually do it.

 

[lecyleclec]

I would say a 3. I've never attempted suicide in the past but I've been hospitalized for suicidal thoughts multiple times.

 

[BrokenLine]

1. damn it took this long.

 

[Slimetae]

1

 

[deleted]

1 for my friend, 5 for my family, It's going to be 1 week of lying and blaming other people and then going on with their shitty lives like nothing happened

 

[nameeater]

1-2, I've failed an embarrassing amount of attempts lol

 

[Judy Garland]

1

 

[OctoberDusk]

It depends if the people who rely on me are still around/aware. If so they'll probably be at least an 8. I don't believe many others will bother to care much, so maybe a 5-6 in kind of an, "Oh, that guy? Huh. He seemed nice and was kind of funny. Ah well. What's for lunch?" way.

 

[lostmylove]

9. Most of them will be shocked I didn't do it earlier deep down. Walking corpse lol

 

[MementoMori81]

I'm going to put a 3 on my parents and siblings, well, my brother at least, my sister less so, probably a 5. My closest friends at a 3 and my other mates at around a 5.

The reason being that with family and my closest friends, I've had an open and frank discussion with them about how I feel, that opting for an exit of my own volition is definitely an option for me, always will, and that I'd sooner talk to them about it, rather than do something unexpectedly out of the blue. My mum said something which sticks with me. She basically said that if they get a call from a number they don't recognise, or they call me and I'm not answering and so on, that they do often expect it to be that I've taken the exit. Not just me, either, they tend to think of the same about my brother, as he has been in a bad way for quite a long time - due to his own reasons, different to my own.
Their sentiment was that, they wouldn't want me to take that option, but at the same time they wouldn't want me to lead a miserable existence. They've been brilliant, throughout my life, so I felt duty bound to be open and honest with them about my feelings, if for no other reason that I would never want them to blame themselves - assuming my own end came before theirs. It's not their fault in the least that I feel the way I feel, and I'd be gutted for them to believe otherwise.
Close friends, same score as above.

Everyone else? I think they know I'm prone to being suicidal, they definitely know I have my struggles, although I think they will be a bit more surprised; "I can't believe he actually did it" that kind of thing.

 

[oneofmany1000]

10

10

10 because I've convinced everyone that I'm fine.