Discussion On a scale of 1 (not surprised at all) - 10 (absolutely shocked), what will the general reaction be after you ctb?

[VoidDesirer22]

For me I'd say it'd be at least an 8 or 9. I refuse to believe it could be a 10 with how I've acted at certain stages in my life.

 

[LoneMisery]

Prolly a 3. Ive expressed my desire but have kept quiet lately because a. Lost friends cuz kf talking about it and b. I dont want people to kno when im going to do it

 

[Hurt]

I think a 7. Some people know I am depressed so they wouldnt be so surprised. Anyway I'm making a huge effort for not looking depressed and that's why I'm tired all the time.

 

[Anxieyote]

Checked myself into a psychiatric ward, so probably a 3. My mom had a cousin who CTB'd shortly after going to one, so I feel like it wouldn't be too shocking to her at least.

 

[S like Siren]

Speaking of my family, they know that I am suicidal they have also witnessed one of my attempts, but in fact they think that I am not able to commit suicide since I have failed, so I would say 1 or maximum 2. Speaking instead of people I knew in the past, like in high school ... anyway people with whom I have not had relationships for many years and who maybe could come to know it in some way I would say a 10 or 9..

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case, I believe that people would be shocked as they have no idea that I am suicidal. It would definitely be one of the higher numbers. Wanting to die is my personal decision and it is nothing to do with anyone else. I see it as better to keep my feelings to myself. Of course it does not matter to me how people react after I die, as I will not be there to see it. When I die, everything ends for me and I will finally be at peace.

 

[Sherri]

My family wouldn't be surprised as I have tried numerous times, plus I have 4 notebooks that I want them to find and read with my darkest thoughts and every single them is written on those pages.

 

[Chiisai]

Any ordinary person seeing a dead body will totally be shocked out of wits end. Much more if its someone they know.

 

[Ada]

1

 

[Frog]

Eh, 3. More like "oh wow she actually did it"

 

[Ligottian]

I really depends on the person and how well they knew me. Some close to 1. Others close to 10.

 

[cocainenosejobs]

8? for family
6 for close friends and exes
No one thinks I would ever commit and leave my cat when I used to refuse to take trips for a day without him. Everyone thinks I healed after my last psych ward trip at 15.

 

[rationaltake]

Checked myself into a psychiatric ward

Hope you're getting the help you need.

 

[PrawnCocktail]

For my family, probably 10. They found a suicide note I left on my phone when I was 12, but other than that I think I've done a relatively good job of convincing them I'd never want to kill myself. With my friends, I'd say a 2 or 3. They know I'm (very) suicidal, but might be shocked that I wasn't all talk.

 

[Nolan96]

It would be about a 4 if I decide to finally take the leap.
It's been a long time since I last vocally expressed that I want to die, but I've been living up to my reputation as a horribly miserable outcast for years.
Sometimes I feel like total strangers can read it in my voice.

 

[Graytaichi]

It doesnt really bother me as i have legitimate reasons to ctb. Eg my mum has stage 4 cancer. I living for her only, i come to terms my father and brother will be mad at me but i domt care

 

[s66]

people just don't/wouldn't care

 

[ikadasui]

ballpark of 3-5. Most know I'm miserable and have said I want to die, but they don't know I keep a 9mm and JHP bullets in a safe under my bed and am capable of ending it at anytime of my choosing.

 

[sharklasers]

1. my friends and family have all seen me suffering, both physically and mentally. no one's ever spoken up. ever. i'm sure there are many who are geniunely curious as to why i haven't ctb already. when i go, i know after the initial shock, there will be a chorus of resigned sighs as they all realize that was most likely how i was gunna go.

 

[Famous Last Words]

About 9. I think some people have suspicions that all is not well but not to the extent of suicide.

I don't have any close friends or relatives who'll be impacted emotionally though. Just a bit of shock and possibly a few tear emojis on facebook or something. No one will miss me.

 

[rudebeat]

It would vary a lot between different people. My dad seems to think I'll never commit suicide no matter how much I mention it, my mom used to think the same also although earlier this week on a very bad day for me she slept down in the living room, I'm guessing because she wanted to hear if I sneaked out of the house to commit suicide. I've mentioned I've left the house during the night before planning on this a few times, and she might be doing this again tonight. I'll say an 8 from my dad and a 6 from my mom. I've never told any of my friends about my issues besides a couple of my health issues. One of them has kind of signaled to me he knows something is wrong, just not to what extent. I overheard another talking saying he didn't believe me when I said that I left college for health issues (even though I did) when I just returned and saw him recently, even if he's wrong about the health issues he's right about there being mental issues. I'll say an 8 from both of them. As far as I can tell none of my other friends have ever been aware that I might've ever considered suicide.

I'm sure none of the people in my classes from 7th grade-11th grade would be shocked that I committed suicide I had a reputation for being mentally ill, it was an extremely large school so not everyone knew it but it was still pretty bad. In 12th grade a few weeks before I was planning on committing suicide I had a breakdown in class, I'm not sure how much word of that spread. Also in 12th grade a note saying I was going to kill myself fell out of where I was hiding it or something and people in my class found it later and asked me about that. I straight face denied it. I just paused for a few seconds and said no. I don't know if it worked. I used to be funny back during that grade so people might not have believed it. I made a joke about it to my friends afterwards and they laughed so I know at least they didn't believe it.

 

[imdoneandidontcare]

Probably a 3-4. My family knows I'm not doing well but I don't think they know how negative/dark my thoughts have been recently. So they would be shocked to find out due to not realizing I've slid back to where I was a month-ish ago

 

[NSA]

6 or 5. Maybe a 3, but only on hindsight. I live with family but come and go as I please and may not say a word to them for days at a time. They know of my issues but are incapable of understanding just how bad it really is.

I'm planning to do it away from home only because they likely wouldn't find the body until it starts to stink up the place. I'm not that much of an asshole...

 

[Graytaichi]

Prob a 9

 

[nolongerhuman]

The more they know me the less surprised they're going to be but honestly I think most people who have known me more than briefly are going to have some idea.

 

[Pol]

10........ my wife has thanatophobia.

 

[mytime]

For my closest friend, who I told about my suicidal ideations once, maybe a 9.5?

For everyone else probably a 10 - I never ask for help because I'm afraid to and I always make out that I'm fine. I think people believe I have my life together and that I succeed all the time, but I don't, I just hide things well.

 

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people will pretend at around 3-5 because its curtesy to feel taken back and shocked at someone's death but deep down it will be 1. if it's higher then they are genuinely stupid.

 

[headwood]

I've been slipping up in my weakest moments and using language hinting at killing myself around my parents for the past couple of months (forced to move back in with them due to my illness), so for them it will be maybe a 6-8. Everyone else who used to know the person I was before my disease changed everything, it'll be a 10.

 

[justsayin]

surprised-it-didn't-happen-earlier out of 10