Ok about to buy a flight to San francisco

[Suez]

Thanks all! I have made my decision on this bus. I don't need to be 100 percent sure as I feel relatively certain that with appearing to be a normal tourist, stepping on the railing and jumping quickly with careful pacing, ensuring no one is around and jumping to land flat so that my back hurts with maximum surface area and head snaps into the water shortly after with momentum built up will cause both the severe internal damage and secondary unconsciousness / instant concussion that I'll die very quickly. I have a PhD in chemistry (literally) and though I can calculate the mg/kg and even get any poison I want, I know my own psyche and I'm far more determined to jump and not be able to claw back to the bridge that to start taking a drug or poison and then try to somehow save myself. I just know me.

I bought my bus (plane) ticket! I can't tell you how empowered and totally strong this makes me feel. It's secret, I don't have to worry about being berated afterwards, I won't have to argue with anyone or get out down and beat up. I can take this action and every consequence is mine and I can't be torn to shreds of a human afterwards. In these moments of this trip I actually won't have to feel afraid of being screamed at or berated and that fills me with the most profound joy!

I must say I admire the commitment that you show. Ive also done a PhD, so I know the kind of commitment it takes to even get through something like that in your life. Thats not something that many people are successful in completing, so congrats at even getting through that. Thats how I know that you are fully commited to going through with jumping from the SF bridge, cos anyone commited enough to do a PhD will be commited enough to do what your about to do. Im not going to say dont do it or say why it will or wont work. Youve thought through this probably for the better part of your life I imagine, so you know what you are doing and you know full well what the consequences if any are if it fails. I just want to wish you a safe journey there. Enjoy first class travel, Ive never done first class. Ive been to the bridge, some years ago now, so Ill think of you when you get there. Im sure you will find the peace your looking for,

 

[Whale_bones]

Because the sea is beautiful. And I wish I could feel truly free.

@Alec, you have a very poetic way of writing. I loved reading your descriptions of your town, with the potentially peaceful beach and lighthouse that is too often overwhelmed with tourists. I pictured it in detail in my head. And your thoughts on life/afterlife are beautiful as well.

@Tintypographer, your username reminds me of an episode I just watched about tintype/ferrotype photography. You sound very certain that this method is the one for you. I wish you peace on your journey.

 

[dibbydoo]

Looking at flights and committing to buying a bus (plane) ticket. I'm going to go first class. If anyone is in SFO and wants a to wave goodbye i'll post on here just before I walk into the bridge and leave my phone on the ground. It'll be in the next week or so. I'll post what I'm wearing here and walk up, not loiter, hop the rail and stand on the chord and step off leaning to hit flat without any hesitation. I don't want to talk to anyone there or pause at all.

Hey You!
Have you heard of Kevin Hines?

His story is quite remarkable, I've attached a video below for you.

I know you're in pain❤
Going to San Francisco will be an education for you, so you still should go, but listen to Kevin, he's been there and 'done it' - he jumped!

What happened next was a miracle.

Don't believe everything that's in your head Tintypographer, you are being lied to.