Venting Oh you normies! I hate you but kinda admire you.

[yive]

What happened to OP?

same question. what happened to him? i'm worried~

 

[ceelestial]

same question. what happened to him? i'm worried~

Probs banned for wrongthink.

 

[Spitfire]

same question. what happened to him? i'm worried~

Nobody has said?

He was sounding very serious about carrying out his plan. Maybe he self-banned to have time to himself now?

 

[yive]

Nobody has said?

He was sounding very serious about carrying out his plan. Maybe he self-banned to have time to himself now?

he had no such intentions [to ban himself], as far as i know...

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

same question. what happened to him? i'm worried~

It's so strange . He was so active for such a long time and then one day just dissapeared (crossed out). And no one has a clue as to what happened to him.

 

[issyishere]

I came here to ask the same thing. Anyone got the deets

 

[WornOutLife]

I just wanna say two things here:

1) I don't hate normies but I do dislike them, as you can see in the words I wrote. It might be envy them, who knows? I'm not perfect.

2) I'm alive! At least for now. Thanks a bunch for worrying about me! I plan to ctb on January, 21st by SN but I don't have the guts really so...who knows? I might have that SN, waiting for me, for some more time.

Also, thank you so much for your replies to this thread. They were awesome! I just wrote what I thought at the spur of the moment and don't regret every single world.

Fortunately, most of you know the kind of person I am and understood properly this thread.


All in all, hugs and love to you all <3

 

[confused-gemini]

This is dedicated to all those pro-lifers guests and normal people:

Oh you, normies, are certainly a peculiar species.
You're part of the majority of the humanity because you decide to live, have a job, a family, etc.
You call us, those who wanna ctb, COWARDS, MAD MEN/WOMEN, and then send us to a psych ward because that's the "right" thing to do. It's okay, you're pro-lifers after all, you wouldn't understand us even if you wanted to but...

Why are you so mean? Well, I think I have some idea...
You, normies, have problems just like any other human being but your life is VERY BASIC.

Since being teenagers, you had normal classmates, one or two girfriends and then you finished high school.

The system told you that you gotta go to university or get a job ASAP. Otherwise, you'd be homeless.
So, some of you got a slave job, some of you went to university and are now professionals but still slaves because you work too many hours a week.

Then, after some years you meet that person, and get married. You don't know exactly why but most people get married right? So you do.
Wait a moment! You're married and have no children! How could this be possible? Society wants you to have children, so you'll have at least 1. (they prefer if it's 2 or 3)

Great! You're in your 30s, have a nice car, your own house, a lovely family...YOU ARE NORMAL!

Now, the only thing left to di is get older and when you're too gray and skinny don't worry, your children will be your nurses.

WAIT...WAS THAT IT? IS THAT A GREAT LIFE?

Listen to me, normies. Haven't you ever wondered why the system wants you to live no matter what? Have you heard about suicide?
What about the universe? Do you think a smiling God created us and that's it? Oh, you're a Christian so the other religions are all wrong? Doesn't it seem strange to you?
Why do you call us, the people who CTB, cowards?

Haven't you thought about the fact that maybe we don't want that "normal and happy" life because maybe, perhaps, it looks too fake and boring?

I still have more questions for you, normies, but let me tell you, man, you're kinda amazing.

I mean, you're suddenly born into this world and instantly activate your pilot mode/live the life and don't question anything mode. You simply, live...

How do you do it, normies? How can you ignore the universe and the thought of existing. It's all so weird.

Oh you, normies! I hate you but kinda admire you...



(Thanks a bunch for reading my venting. I really needed it. Normal people are just amazing to me. I dislike them, though. I prefer people who feel more real, like YOU, my dear SS fellows).

I love this the other day I was walking around the mall (I needed to pick up something I ordered and i just stayed to walk around)and I had similar thoughts to this! Me over here feeling anxious AF like I'm losing my mind and they're just walking around with friends, family, spouses and functioning like normal people and I was so jealous like fuck I wish I could function like that but then like you said it'd be boring as hell

 

[WornOutLife]

I love this the other day I was walking around the mall (I needed to pick up something I ordered and i just stayed to walk around)and I had similar thoughts to this! Me over here feeling anxious AF like I'm losing my mind and they're just walking around with friends, family, spouses and functioning like normal people and I was so jealous like fuck I wish I could function like that but then like you said it'd be boring as hell

haha, you know exactly what I meant with this thread then! Glad to know that!!! =)

 

[JayDog]

Very good OP! Also I don't know if someone mentioned it, but it seems to me that the happiest people are less intelligent.

More than few times when I became closer to highly intelligent people, they revealed to me that they have some kind of mental problems.
Also people that are less intelligent seem to be much more scared of death.

 

[Deleted member 25174]

Giving people names/labels to be derogatory makes you no better than the people you're complaining about. Not everyone is going to understand why we feel this way but you surely must understand that? I talk to my closest friends about my ideation and they're caring and considerate but I couldn't tell my mum because she'd be devastated and not understand. It's really heavy stuff and people are struggling to manage their own lives even if they look what you consider normal. Creating divides where there aren't any is dangerous. If someone irl told me they were suicidal my natural instinct would be to point out everything they had to live for and how great of a person they were. I wouldn't want someone close to me ctb. Just because I want to doesn't mean I automatically think everyone should. I would be devastated if someone came to me who felt like I do

 

[fred farkle]

I wish to fuck I WAS a normie! How I hate this life!

 

[Cockatoo]

Ahah, I'm sorry for the off topic question, but could somebody explain me what the word "venting" is meaning here?) Eng isn't my native so I can't fully understand

 

[Ender]

explain me what the word "venting" is meaning here?)

It just means blowing off some steam, expressing some frustrations. I hope that helps.

 

[Deleted member 17949]

too long for me to bother reading but I think I probably agree

 

[IsThisTheEnd?]

Giving people names/labels to be derogatory makes you no better than the people you're complaining about. Not everyone is going to understand why we feel this way but you surely must understand that? I talk to my closest friends about my ideation and they're caring and considerate but I couldn't tell my mum because she'd be devastated and not understand. It's really heavy stuff and people are struggling to manage their own lives even if they look what you consider normal. Creating divides where there aren't any is dangerous. If someone irl told me they were suicidal my natural instinct would be to point out everything they had to live for and how great of a person they were. I wouldn't want someone close to me ctb. Just because I want to doesn't mean I automatically think everyone should. I would be devastated if someone came to me who felt like I do

This is an interesting post, most people and I include Doctors can't relate and also if someone told me they wanted to ctb I would be like no please don't do that etc but I wouldn't expect anything meaningful from anyone I told I was going to ctb.

but you have to wonder(don't you?) why is it impossible for the majority to not understand this dark feeling or why is it impossible for me to experience happiness.

 

[ShutUpEli]

Ignorance is bliss, man. I don't get why some people are being so hostile on this post, but I completely get you here, it's very admirable to be able to live such a long lie and believe it the whole way throughout. Anyone being negative on this post probably just hasn't come to terms with their death yet or are just here to instigate. Let em waste their energy, lol.

 

[WornOutLife]

Ignorance is bliss, man. I don't get why some people are being so hostile on this post, but I completely get you here, it's very admirable to be able to live such a long lie and believe it the whole way throughout. Anyone being negative on this post probably just hasn't come to terms with their death yet or are just here to instigate. Let em waste their energy, lol.

Haha I think some of them didn't like it because they misunderstood the word "hate" in the title.
I don't hate normies, I kinda admire them because I wish I could be such an ignorant and enjoy this nonsense and cruel world.

Anyway, this was one amazing venting for me because I felt extremely good after posting it and most replies, just like yours, are great.

Hugs and love,

Matt

 

[FuneralCry]

This is an old thread - but sometimes I can't believe that there are people who don't think about dying and suicide all the time. I guess the thoughts have been ingrained in my mind since I was a kid, so its the way I see the world. I want to steal someones enjoyment for life.

 

[WornOutLife]

This is an old thread - but sometimes I can't believe that there are people who don't think about dying and suicide all the time. I guess the thoughts have been ingrained in my mind since I was a kid, so its the way I see the world. I want to steal someones enjoyment for life.

Yes, it's amazing how it is possible for them not to think about this stuff. They're just not interested or not capable of grasping the idea of this weird universe, life and death.

For instance, my dad is the best human being I know but, yesterday, I was talking to him (in a very exciting way because I love this topic) about the universe and he just told me that the only thing he's worried about is our country and me lol.